My Cup of Coffee

The Hunger Games

2012-01-17T11:03:00.001+07:00

It was around 2006 when I watched this Japanes movie titled Battle Royale, the one with all that post-war near apocalyptic world, where the government will be crazy and desperate enough to throw a full game of setting teenager out in secluded island and kill each other until only one remain and declare as winner. Fast forward to the beginning of 2012, with all the commotion about the upcoming movie, The Hunger Games, I force myself to read the novel with a pang of underestimate feeling caused of its similarity to Battle Royale.

Set in the alternate future of what today is North America, is the country of Panem. With its 12 districts that enslaved by the all and mighty Capitol. Each of Panem's districts is said to has specific characteristic that distinct one to another, which is also the characteristic that been assumed by most of the population of the district itself, from the fact that every character's ability in the books is being defined by which district they comes from. On the other hand, all that districts share the same characteristic : poor, enslaved and dictated by the capitol, and has a life quality that maybe seems similar to what it's been told about the life in North Korea today.
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Mission:Impossible - Ghost Protocol

2011-12-16T11:16:00.003+07:00

I'm writing again! And it's about a movie my friends, it's been so long since the last time I write about movie. The thing is, I watched Mission Impossible Ghost Protocol yesterday, and WOW... maybe it is the best MI movie ever. Point to point here...

Kesetaraan

2011-11-29T10:48:00.001+07:00

Lelap terus, dan kau pun dipuji sebagai bangsa terlembut di dunia.

Darahmu dihisap dan dagingmu dilahap sehingga hanya kulit tersisa.

Siapa pula tak memuji sapi dan kerbau?

Orang dapat menyuruhnya kerja, dan memakan dagingnya.

Tapi kalau mereka tahu hak-haknya, orang pun akan menamakannya pongah, karena tidak mau ditindas.

Bahasamu terpuji halus di seluruh dunia, dan sopan pula.

Sebabnya kau menegur bangsa lain dalam bahasa kromo dan orang lain menegurmu dalam bahasa ngoko.

Kalau kau balikkan, kau pun dianggap kurang ajar.

[Doenia Bergerak - Oemar Said Tjokroaminoto, 1914]

Birdy

2011-11-23T16:30:00.001+07:00

Once upon a time, UK is the center of the world's cultural movement. From punk, skinhead, working class music... britpop, doc marten... name it. And then there's a shift, with the help of a bunch of good looking boys that adding the word 'band' as their last name and also some teenage girl with revealing outfit and ability to move as elastic as rubber, American music become the dominant force in the world. But maybe, just maybe, like what The Beatles did in the 60s, and britpop in mid 90s, once again british music will dominate the world.

And the first strike is a group of heavy talented girl with over the top voice, Amy Winehouse and Adele. Those two girl dominate the US chart and also global chart without being half naked or move like agitated snake, they does it with their amazing voice and beautiful live performance. They just great just the way they are. From Amy and Adele, I travel over the web and found other talented british musician like Ellie Goulding, and now Birdy. This girl is only 15, yes, and yet she can play the piano, she can sing and she can write and compose a song, duh! I fall in love with her voice, and her modest composure. Hey, not every teenager has to be like Justin Bieber, Miley Cyrus, Selena Gomez or whoever else. She just amazing in her own way.

Wonderful Adele

2011-11-11T10:01:00.001+07:00

I watched this trailer of Adele's concert in Royal Albert Hall and feel so emotional. Adele is a wonderful singer. I fall in love with her music from the first time I listened to Chasing Pavement in the radio. I scream with joy when she won her first Grammy, and I definitely one of many people who swore that 21 is the best female singer album ever!

She shared the same birthday as my mother in the same year as I am, which make her just 3 days older than me, yet, she has inspired many girls in the world. You know, when I listen to her music, as a girl, I always think... "it is alright to be brokenhearted, it is great to pour your heart out of your sadness, but the most important thing is to get back to your feet and show the world that you are a big girl! Yes, big girl do cry, but we're not crying forever!"

About Money

2011-11-10T09:31:00.001+07:00

"It wasn’t that important, because I never did it for the money … I think money is a wonderful thing because it enables you to do things, enables you to invest in ideas that don’t have a short term payback and things like that … But, especially at that point in my life, it was not the most important thing. The most important thing was the company, the people, the products that we were making, what we were going to enable people to do with these products … I didn’t think about it a great deal … I never sold any stock — I really believed the company would do very well over the long term"

[Steve Jobs]

New book to read : In the Plex

2011-11-09T14:06:00.000+07:00

New book on my book-to-read-list : In the Plex, How Google Thinks, Works, and Shape our Lives by Steven Levy. This is the second book about Google that I read, after Googled by Ken Auletta. I read Googled last year, and got a brief history and understanding of the internet giant, from the idea and project of two Stanford graduate students, to a realization of multibillion company that become our main source of looking for information.

In the Plex is said to be written with cooperation of Google exec, with detail under the hood information about the development of Google culture and business. I found that some blogger using this book as trusted reference to understand Google strategy today. I just googled the book and decided to read it as soon as I finish Steve Jobs by Walter Isaacson which is still in progress. It means I push the Heroes of Olympus series, and The Hunger Games series down to the bottom of the list. Well, I have little time for fiction and the moment, which is still makes me feel uneasy for being a little too busy than usual.

The Great Tech War of 2012

2011-10-25T13:36:00.003+07:00

I just starting to read the new issue of Fast Company : The Great Tech War of 2012. Who will win the battle for the future of innovation economy? wooohooooooo... it really great to read it. They compare 4 companies with different starting point which has grown ahead of others to be the leader of digital world, Apple, Amazon, Google and Facebook. This is quite a thorough article on each company's excellence, competitiveness and value. And a nice reading for all the tech enthusiast out there... I will update my comment when I finish reading it.

About love

2011-10-11T14:46:00.000+07:00

“I thought to myself, If this is my last day on earth, would I rather spend it at a business meeting or with this woman?” Then he ran across the parking lot and asked her to dinner.

Virtual Assistant

2011-10-07T15:59:00.000+07:00

Back at 2004, I was a freshmen at School of Electrical Engineering and Informatics at Bandung Institute of Technology. At the time, there was a competition hold by the student association aiming at High School student, it called LED : Light of Electrical Dream. The competition is simple, you just have to dream, dream about an innovative electrical-electronic technology that will give huge impact on human life. It is a very successful event, and I feel bad that I have enrolled to college at the time, because I want to participate in it so badly. But still, me and my friend talk and toying around about what we would dream of if we can participate in the competition...

There are so many ideas. With no limitation of feasibility, it is great to dream about almost everything. One of my friend talk about biometric identification, where human being can digitally identified with their fingerprint that connected to integrated database of all of their information, from date of birth to bank account. She said, "we don't need any money, we don't need to registered for a passport, all we need is our thumb". Indeed, that is a very brave dream, right? Very Minority Report :)

And then my turn, and I simply think about automatic housing system. Where a house can be so smart that it can detect our mood for music, adjust the room temperature, manage the utilities and most of all can communicate and manage our need by simply directly asking us. Well, it sort of like Tony Stark's Jarvis. Oh hell, I really head over heel for Jarvis. I'm craving to have one :P

That was dream. But I remember about it again last Wednesday, Apple announced their latest upgrade on the iPhone series, iPhone 4S, exactly one day before they lost they co-founder. Nothing so special about the device. It looks exactly like iPhone 4. They said it is faster in processing, and faster in browsing. They said the camera is better. But nothing really interesting in both, it just old song. What really caught my attention is Siri, a virtual voice-operated personal assistant. They said Siri is so smart, and she can tell you exactly what you want as far as you tell her clearly what you want. Wow... they make mini-Jarvis, the iPhone-sized-Jarvis, and really I'm craving for one.

People said Siri is the new innovation that finally will disrupt Google-search domination in the internet and mobile domain. I'm not really sure about that, but it really worth the attention. Well, we'll see, how far Siri will boost iPhone 4S sales, and how the market react to it. And one more thing, it really will be interesting to see how Google will response.

Stay hungry, Stay foolish

2011-10-06T09:18:00.000+07:00

(picture taken from Apple.com)

He co-founded Apple computer, he founded Next, he built Pixar, and not the least, he gave you the 'i'... He was Steve Jobs.

The world mourns today for the lost of the greatest innovator of the century. No one will argue that he has a remarkable life. He inspired generations of people, proved us what it means to be passionate in what you're doing -love what you're doing. He revolutionized global industries, from electronic to mobile, from digital design to merchandising, from application to music. He told us precisely what 'user experience' is about. He showed you that a touch of one finger is matter and that one-click is always better.

Steve Jobs will always be remembered as a great man. Rest in peace Steve.

Hereby, I attach Steve Jobs's commencement speech at Stanford University graduation at 2005. It is one of the best speech I've ever heard delivered by a tech industry practitioner. It's about his life, his vision, his love... and his view of death. It's very moving speech and reading it is a very practical way to recharge your motivation. Here I copied the text from CNN website. For all of you who have a goal to make a dent in the universe.

Kembali ke pojok : I'm not that girl

2011-09-27T23:19:00.000+07:00

Aku memanggilnya Kakak, putri satu-satunya dari adik ibuku. Umur kami berdua dekat, hanya berbeda 2 tahun. Tapi kami tak dekat, karena sejak kecil kami dibesarkan di kota yang berbeda. Ibuku sering sekali bercerita tentang dia, tidak membuatku tambah menyukainya, malah sebaliknya aku sangat tidak menyukainya, karena dia selalu terdengar sempurna. Ketahuilah, tak ada hal yang lebih menyakitkan dari mendengar ibumu sendiri menyanjung-nyanjung gadis lain seolah dia berharap gadis itu putrinya, memuakkan.

Hanya 2 hal yang kuketahui sebagai persamaan kami : perempuan dan anak tunggal, selain itu aku merasa sangat berbeda darinya. Dia cantik, atau jika banyak yang mengatakan cantik itu relatif maka aku akan mengatakan dia menarik secara fisik berdasarkan standar umum : kulit putih, rambut panjang, tinggi, langsing, dan itu semua didukung oleh gayanya yang feminim. Aku, boleh dibilang hampir kebalikannya.Aku tak tahu apakah dari sananya kami sudah sangat berbeda, atau dari kenyataan bahwa selama ini kami selalu bersaing -lebih tepatnya aku ingin selalu bisa mengalahkannya. Selalu.

Kalau kakak menang satu perlombaan, aku akan berusaha untuk menang dua. Kalau Kakak juara kelas, aku akan juara angkatan. Kalau Kakak murid teladan kota, aku akan murid teladan provinsi. Kalo Kakak masuk ke jurusan favorit di universitas terbaik, aku masuk jurusan terbaik di universitas terbaik. Kalo Kakak lulus sebagai sarjana terbaik, aku lulus sarjana dan master terbaik. Aku akan melakukan apapun lebih baik dari dia! Itu terus berlanjut, bahkan sampai saat ini. Hanya, kali ini ada yang berbeda, sesuatu yang membuatku sangat kesal.

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I'm not that girl...

2011-09-26T14:28:00.003+07:00

Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl
[I'm not that girl - Elphaba & reprise by Glinda - Wicked]

Nope, I'm not being melancholy or else... it just I really, really want to watch Wicked musical... at least the one that will be played at Singapore Esplanade this December. I hope I have the opportunity to watch it :)

Hope and Pray

2011-08-26T08:59:00.000+07:00

And if you don't mind

Can you tell me

All your hopes and fears

and Everything that you believe in

Would you make a difference in the world

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation

Only you can make me

[Yuna - Deeper Conversation]

Independence month

2011-08-25T08:48:00.004+07:00

August is always been an independence month in Indonesia, because we are commemorating our independence day at 17th August. But for me personally, this month is a whole new level of independency, I try to elaborate it in 3 points:

1. Independence from complaining!

"Work very very hard. Be honest and fair. Be professional. Be low-profile. And move very fast." - 5 principles by BJ Habibie

In the past semester, I think I busy nag around about my work and position and salary and whatever it has to do with my office. But then I come to realize that I'm not deserve to be like that yet.

Come to evaluate myself, Did I complete a doctorate degree in Europe in the subject that other people just dream about? not. Did I build a big industry that become the nation proud and giant leap in technology? not. Did I inspire a generation of youth about the dream of technology, science and industry? not. Did I serve as a president at the most chaotic time in this country ever? not. So, do I have the right to complain around and being lazy over a disappointment to system? of course NO!

Mr. Habibie has done all those things, has given a great contribution to this nation, has inspire generations of people and yet, he never find it enough. So why should I?!?!

Don't push your luck, because every man/woman's fortune is already written, if it's not the time... then it's not the time. I will just try my hardest and I have faith that Allah will give me equally.

2. Independence from rats!

Yes, rats! My territory a.k.a my room has been invaded by a rat and for the most bizzare thing ever happened, the rat think that my room is quite comfy to get labor, yes, get LABOR! THERE'S A RAT GET LABOR AT MY ROOM, UNDER MY BED! GROOOOOSSSSSSS!!!!

I can't even let myself look at those baby rats. All I did is waiting the help to get rid of those rats and then I clean up my room like a freak, to the point that I think that I behave like an OCD. After that grossy incident, I filed a complain to the landlady, but hey... like always, she seems to think that it's no big deal. Rats lady, RATS! What in the world you would think that a rat got labor in your room is no big deal??? So, I call it quit, I move out. I have rented out another room yesterday and will move in tomorrow. Sorry, I fear snake, and rat is snake's snack, so I always scare that there will be snake appearance if there are rats, it's a nature... food chain. No tolerance over this one.

3. Independence from credit card debt.

Unfortunately, it is still an on going process. But heyy... I have a quite good progress. I accept the fact that credit card is the most convenient payment method ever existed, please note that you don't have to pay the bill in full amount. But then I remember what my ex-boss have said to me,

"it's alright not to pay your bill in full, but if you spend the money to pay the interest into some investment, it will be more profitable to you" (it's my roughly translation from bahasa to english).

Then he gave me the illustration, that if I spend the same amount of money for interest monthly into investment, like reksadana maybe, in 15 years I will have enough money to send my child to a good university in UK. Holly crap, UK!!!

So I bear it in mind : no credit card interest means investment, investment means college in UK for my child, means she or he can go to college happily without bearing any worry about tuition fee. Means they can reach their education to the fullest and be a smarter man/woman than their mother. That seems really nice to do. So, I close one of my credit card and pay full the other, it feels very light for my next monthly expense also.

That's a wrap for now. I will have tons to do before the Eid holiday. Move out, break fasting with LSS 04, break fasting with elektro 04, and of course mudik... (please ya Allah, give us a decent traffic *pray*). So, happy holiday everyone, and do your last days of ramadhan wisely, it will be a whole year before you meet one again, hope that we all have the opportunity to meet the next ramadhan :)

English, Bahasa, dan Basa

2011-08-11T11:12:00.004+07:00

a little break from posting in english....

GW BOSAAAAANNNNN!!!

Pengen tertawa sendiri dengan kenyataan bahwa setiap saya posting dengan menggunakan bahasa adalah untuk marah-marah atau mengeluh. Sebegitu tak indahkah bahasa tanah air saya sampai saya hanya bisa menggunakannya untuk mengeluh?

Jangan salahkan palu ketika jarimu terpukul, jangan salahkan pena ketika tulisanmu tak terbaca. Intinya, bukan bahasa yang jadi masalah, tapi memang saya kurang bisa menulis yang indah-indah menggunakan bahasa, alias taunya emang cuman bisa marah-marah :)

Tapi ternyata kasus ini hanya berlaku untuk saya seorang. Beberapa teman bisa menulis dengan begitu baik pakai bahasa (dimana saya berusaha menulis dengan english supaya lebih keren kebacanya), dan oya... ada juga yang mendedikasikan blog nya untuk menulis sajak dan puisi.

Tarolah Hasan Aspahani sebagai contoh. Blog Sejuta Puisi-nya adalah satu blog yang saya sering kunjungi. Sajak dan puisi buatannya begitu bagus sampai saya merasa malu sendiri sebagai orang yang 20 tahun lebih berbahasa indonesia tapi tak bisa menulis dalam bahasa sebagus itu (walau pakai english pun gak pernah bagus-bagua amat sih...). Sajak Hasan Aspahani buat saya terasa jujur, mengungkapkan hal-hal sederhana menjadi sesuatu yang mengundang imajinasi. Saya sudah lama berusaha mencari buku kumpulan sajak beliau, sayangnya belum berjodoh untuk ketemu saja dan bahkan beberapa hari lagi kumpulan sajaknya yang baru akan diterbitkan.

Saya selalu ingin bisa menulis puisi. Ibu saya bilang dulu waktu kecil saya punya buku kecil yang isinya kumpulan puisi buatan sendiri. Hmmm... aneh, karena saya sendiri tak pernah ingat saya bisa menulis puisi :P

Kembali ke bahasan mengenai bahasa. Sebagai orang sunda, saya juga menguasai sedikit basa sunda. Dan setelah saya pikir-pikir ternyata saya hanya bisa menggunakan basa sunda level pergaulan, alias kasar dengan banyak 'mah', 'tah', 'maneh', 'urang' dan 'siah'. Hihihihi... karena memang setelah diingat-ingat, yang mengajarkan saya basa sunda itu teman-teman sekolah waktu SD, dimana level pergaulan lah yang dipakai. Kemampuan basa saya sedikit meningkat ketika saya bergabung dengan Lingkung Seni Sunda saat kuliah. WOW... orang-orang ini ada yang bisa membuat tembang, narasi, puisi dan lain-lain menggunakan basa sunda yang se-kecap pun saya baru dengar saat itu (dan saya agak yakin ayah dan ibu saya yang sunda tulen pun tidak akan begitu mengerti saat membacanya). Pada awalnya saya berpikir basa sunda saya akan lebih baik karena LSS, pada akhirnya saya tahu itu tidak terjadi. Mungkin basa sunda saya lebih lancar, tapi ya dengan kenyataan karena banyak saya gunakan untuk marah-marah juga (seharusnya saya gak pernah ngambil posisi di evaluasi -_-).

Jadi, kesimpulannya, mau menulis dalam apapun saya paling fasih ketika memakainya untuk marah-marah. Kenyataan menyebalkan yang perlu segera diubah. Syukurnya, saat saya belajar nederlands saya tak diajarkan cara marah-marah lebih dulu, tapi bagaimana memesan makanan dan minuman, sedikit perbaikan :)

Transformers 3 - Dark Side of the franchise

2011-08-08T10:29:00.003+07:00

Just Trivia...

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Lennox : "no sign of Optimus?"

No Lennox, Optimus actually has a hard time TRAPPED in a web of chain and waiting for the autobots to free him, What the &%$@???

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Rossie Huttington Whiteley can be a Victoria Secret Angel with glorious face, great hair, hot body and killer legs, but she's just so unimportant in the movie to the point I hope she's not there at all.

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Too much robot can kill you, in term of you got confused to death which one is this, and which one is that. I can't recognize all the robot.

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It just a boy universe, where a jobless Ivy league graduate can save the world, have an alien Chevy camaro as car and hot-girl that irrevocably in love with him.

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It's freaking two hours and 30 minutes long movie!!! And that Shia boy is so insignificant in the first half of the movie...

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*will update when I'm in the mood for writing more sarcastic things...

A thin line between Hero and Pirate

2011-08-05T17:50:00.004+07:00

Just a little conversation in the sea of forest of Mermaid Island, between Jinbe the Sichibukai and Strawhat Monkey D. Luffy.

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Image via Wikipedia

Jinbe : "If you're going to do this, don't be the brutal human that smashed Hody (mermaid villain), be the hero of this island!!!"

Luffy : "Hero?! Forget it!!! We're PIRATES. I love heroes but I don't want to be one!! Do you know what it is to be a hero??"

*pause*

Luffy : "Let's say you have some meat, okay? Now, a pirate would chow down on that bad boy, but a hero would share it with everyone!! I WANT TO EAT MEAT!!!"

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So, in the bottom line, A hero will share what he want with anyone, but pirate will take it all down with them. Maybe they do the same good deeds, but with different perspective and motive... how interesting :)

NB: Monkey D. Luffy is the captain of Strawhat Pirate in the japanese manga One Piece. He maybe stupid with animal-level IQ, but very strong, loyal to his friends and has a clear vision. I love him :D

Rock of my life

2011-07-24T21:29:00.007+07:00

"But you see, it's not me, it's not my family

In your head, in your head they are fighting"

[The Cranberries - Zombie]

I vaguely remember when the first time I'm listening to The Cranberries song, but I'm sure that the song is Zombie. It was on my aunt's self-made compilation cassette, and it was love at the first sound. From the acoustic intro, to the grunge feeling after that and finally Dolores voice. I've never imagine before that a girl's voice can be soft and bold at the same time. I remembered at the time I asking myself, "who is this girl???". And then I saw their first video on MTV. It's not Zombie, it's Promises, and I fell deeper in their music.

The last time The Cranberries held a concert at Jakarta, I'm still at highschool and impossible for me to attend the concert at the time. I remembered being sad, and more sad when I watch the news about the concert on TV. I always want to watch them live, and that dream comes to realization through Java Rockin Land 2011.

The moment I knew that The Cranberries has been confirmed as one of headlining band for JRL 2011, I bought the ticket. I even didn't care how much it cost or at what day they will perform, I bought the 3-days pass. Yesterday, I watched them and HELL it was GREAT!!!

They play all songs that I hope they will play.

From Analyse as the opening, to Dreams at the closing encore. When intro for Linger being played I throw my hands in the air, when I heard the rhythm for Salvation I dance, when I heard the first humming of Ode to Family I lost in thought, when the perform Zombie I scream my lungs out, and then when I heard the first verse of Promises I jump frantically. It was magical! Seeing Dolores with my own eyes. Realized that now she's almost 50 but still feel like in her top performance, scream out, jump from side to side of the stage and doing all the weird moves she always do at their concert. They also performed 2 of their newest songs from their upcoming album Roses, it title Tomorrow and Schyzoprenic Playboy, I don't really into the first but I love the later. I sang in almost all of the song, and scream in between. I never be so happy after watching a band performance before.

I left the main ground of JRL 2011 with wide smile across my face. Eventhough I felt dead tired I don't really care. I walk out from the JRL area with more happier heart than when walk in. I felt wonderful, it didn't matter that my back hurt or my feet feels numb, I have the rock of my life!

Value of time

2011-07-05T13:40:00.007+07:00

Have you ever calculated the exact value of time?

What is the meaning of '1 second'?

What is stated in international standard? "the duration needed by caesium-133 atom to responds certain times of radiation at certain level of states"? Is it really reflecting the exact value of time??? No, that just a standard to measure time, a model some scientists universally agreed on to simplified the complexity of the universe.

I thought about it for a second and remember my high school physics teacher once said, "time is a metric that doesn't have negative value". Once it's gone, it's gone. He said that to teach us that there's no such thing as 'second chance', you just have once shot of everything. What we call today as 'second chance' is actually different attempt on different point of time, it's a repetition of experience not the event . There's no turning back from what you've done, not even in a milisecond. Even in quantum physics we learn that it's possible to time travel to the future, not to the past. And maybe that is the exact value of time right? Time is the sum of every single unique event that you will never repeat. Something to be thought of, be evaluated, be regretted, to be happy about, but won't be repeated.

Just a thought.

picture taken from here with the help of Google image search.

Macchu Picchu

2011-07-01T09:26:00.003+07:00

I found this question : Where would you like to go right now, if you could go anywhere?

My answer would be: Cuzco & Macchu Picchu

The ruins of Macchu Picchu was found at 1917. At 10.500 feet high, it's maybe the highest ancient civilization ever existed. My interest to Peru and particularly Cuzco and Macchu Picchu started back at my 4th grade. I read this comic series published in Bobo magazine, I forget the title, but it's about a kid that has befriended an alien that used to landed in Cuzco. I gained quite a story about Peru and the Maya and started to wonder about Cuzco since then. Cuzco is the second place in my place-to-visit-before-I-die list, just next after Mecca :)

Kembali ke pojok : Marah pada siapa?

2011-06-09T23:21:00.004+07:00

Aku menunggu layar biru itu berkedip dengan perasaan tak tenang. Aku benci mesin ATM. Bukan karena bentuknya, bukan karena aku punya masalah dengannya, lebih karena aku tahu setiap kali aku mengunjungi mesin itu artinya angka di rekening tabunganku akan berkurang. Alasannya banyak, bisa untukku sendiri dan kadang seringnya, untuk orang lain.

"Saldo tersisa di rekening Anda : Rp. 7, 243,657, apakah Anda ingin melakukan transaksi lain?"

Aku menghela nafas dan menekan tombol yang menunjuk 'YA'.

Sudah beberapa bulan terakhir tabungaku terus berkurang, bertambah mungkin, setiap tanggal 1, sebagaimana layaknya pegawai negeri lainnya, tapi sebelum sampai tanggal 5 seperempat dari tambahan itu sudah menghilang -pengeluaran rutin. Sebelum tanggal 15, seperempatnya lagi, untuk kebutuhan sehari-hari. Dan kemudian, pada tanggal 25, saldo tabunganku akan kembali ke posisi sebelum gaji masuk, transfer ke orang tua.

Rutinitas itu adalah siklus standar untuk rekening tabunganku, tapi untuk beberapa bulan ini aktivitasnya bertambah. Adikku sakit. Dan bukan pilek atau flu seperti yang biasanya terjadi padanya, infeksi ginjal. Bisa dibayangkan, adikku, baru saja lulus SMP dan sekarang terkena infeksi ginjal. Dia sering mengeluh sakit perut, aku pikir hanya manja-manjaannya saja. Kemudian mengeluh kencing berdarah, aku berpikir mungkin datang bulannya saja sedang tidak benar. Sampai satu ketika dia sering pingsan, dibawa ke dokter dan difonis terkena infeksi ginjal. Aku kena marah, oleh dokter dan oleh ibuku. Aku juga ingin marah, tapi pada siapa? Adikku sakit, dan terlambat ditangani, aku ingin marah, tapi pada siapa?

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Awesome People

2011-06-06T15:14:00.002+07:00

(source: http://awesomepeoplehangingouttogether.tumblr.com)

I've got chills down my spine when I saw this picture for the first time. Not because the people in the picture already passed away or that it's a black and white picture... But can you imagine? All the people in this picture are actually people who set standard for new era of science!

Pauli, Born, Broglie, Heisenberg, Lorentz, Bohr, Planck, Schroedinger, Curie and of course Einstein! Names that you'll heard next to constants, laws, equations... names that you'll heard after you understand Newton and his generation, names that start the future! All that names in one place. I don't know where or when the picture was taken, but still... it's a great picture.

NB: Madame Curie looks super cool in the picture, first for her fierce expression, second because she's the only woman there.

Dragon Tattoo

2011-06-01T10:09:00.004+07:00

Here is the leaked teaser of US version of The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo. I like the Swedish version, and I hope the American version will be better, at least hollywood can give it more dramatic touch... something that definitely least in the Swedish version. I like Rooney Mara interpretation of Lisbeth Salander looks. It looks fierce and yet doesn't too much.

The song used in the teaser is cover version of Led Zeppelin's Immigrant Song by Trent Reznor of Nine Inch Nail and Karen O of The Yeah Yeah Yeahs. I love the song!!! And play it over and over... the Led Zeppelin, Aerosmith and Trent Reznor-Karen O version, this song is great!!!

Coming Soon: The adventures of Tintin

2011-05-18T14:44:00.004+07:00

Everybody scream on my mark, one... two...three! AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!

This is one of the BEST comic book series ever created, brought to the big screen by two of the BEST filmmaker ever existed, so yes, all of you have a good reason to scream, I will!!!

NB : Dear God, please let all this tax problem in Indonesia to end soon and I can watch all my favourite movie in the theater again, pleaseeeee....

Kembali ke pojok : Every woman want to be loved...

2011-05-17T13:36:00.006+07:00

"cariin gw pacar dong"

Kalimat itu langsung melucur dari mulut sahabatku tepat saat dia duduk. Dan aku hanya bisa menjawab: "heh?" -bengong.

"iya, cariin gw pacar, emang di kantor lu gak ada yang bisa lu kenalin ke gw gitu?" tanyanya lagi, wajah memberengut, dan sibuk membalik-balik buku menu, aku : masih bengong.

"ya ada sih, tapi oom-oom, mau?" tanyaku.

"hah? emang masih single?"

"kagak, elu jadi istri kedua gitu" balasku.

"sialan lu!" dia melempar pandangan bengis padaku. Dia meletakkan buku menu di meja dan memanggil pelayan, seperti biasa memesan secangkir hot mint tea -aku tak mengerti untuk apa dia membuka-buka buku menu itu lama-lama kalau akhirnya dia tetap akan memesan mint tea.

"kenapa sih? sejak kapan punya pacar jadi prioritas satu?" tanyaku.

"sejak gw berumur 28 tahun dan wejangan bokap gw tiap hari udah sekitar punya pasangan dan bangun keluarga" jawabnya sambil bersandar malas. Sebelah alisku naik.

Oke, aku beri sedikit penjelasanku mengenai temanku satu ini. Dia seorang akuntan, berkarir 5 tahun di kantor akuntan publik kemudian pindah menjadi manager internal audit di satu perusahaan telekomunikasi. Usianya sekarang 28 tahun, dia tak punya pacar dan tak pernah tertarik punya pacar sebelumnya, apalagi ketika dia masih kerja di KAP -"gmn gw mau pacaran? gw ajak lembur di kantor client? ah ganggu aja!" - begitu biasanya yang dia katakan kalau ada yang bertanya mengapa dia tak serius cari pasangan. Dan hey, siapa sangka angka 28 dan wejangan orang tua bisa mengubah pandangannya itu.

"jadi kalau bokap lu gak ngomong lu gak akan peduli buat nyari pacar juga?" tanyaku.

"hmmm... mungkin, lagian kayaknya gw gak butuh-butuh banget punya pacar, emang apa enaknya punya pacar?" dia balas bertanya padaku.

"hmmm... tangible advantages... ada yang nganter-jemput lu kalo pergi kemana-mana..." kataku.

"gak butuh... ada sopir..."

"... ada yang nemenin lu makan malem dan nraktir lu makan..."

"gw lebih seneng makan sendiri, and I can afford my meal"

"... ada yang nemenin lu belanja..."

"i have ton of friends and I can even hire a stylist..."

-oke, ni cewek emang gila.

"ok, so what's about the intangible one..."

"just one?"

"yeah, just one... at the end of the day, you always sleep at night, wake up in the morning and do your day with a hope that you won't be left alone in this world... that there will be the one that always there for you, love you"

Dia diam sebentar.

"that's very subjective..." katanya kemudian.

"indeed, but it's true..."

"hope is paralyzing..."

"but it keeps you from giving up"

Dia diam lagi.

"emang segitu pentingnya ya ada yang nemenin?" -dia masih keras kepala, aku hanya tersenyum.

"ask yourself, lu sekarang kerja, ngumpulin duit, sukses, deposito menumpuk, aset melimpah, but someday it's only you... no longer parent and siblings, no husband, no children, at that time you own everything, everything that can be bought, but everything else?... no honey, trust me you don't want to be like that"

Dia diam lagi. Pesanan mint tea nya datang. Dia meneguk sedikit sambil memandang ke lengangnya traffic Jakarta di hari minggu.

"jadi musti serius nih gw?" tanyanya lagi.

"menurut lu?" tanyaku balik.

"haaahhh... yaudah kenalin gw ama siapa kek..."

"eh, kenalinnya sih gampang, elunya bisa serius gak?"

"diusahain..." katanya.

Aku hanya tersenyum, seorang manusia satu ini bisa menjadi sangat lucu.

Pintu cafe itu terbuka, dan seorang pria masuk, maaf aku ralat -seorang pria tampan masuk. Dia melihat sekeliling dan matanya bertumbukan denganku kemudian tersenyum, aku balas tersenyum. Dia menghampiriku dan mencium pipiku lembut.

"hai, dah lama? maaf ya say kamu nunggu..." katanya.

"gak apa-apa, dia juga baru dateng kok..." kataku sambil menunjuk sahabatku di seberang meja.

"oi, pa kabar lu?" dia bertanya pada sahabatku sambil menjabat tangannya.

"dia lagi nyari pacar" jawabku sebelum sahabatku bisa menjawab.

"seriously?"dia melirik sahabatku tak percaya.

"eh, gak usah gitu deh ngeliatnya, seolah gw gak mungkin kepengen punya pacar aja" balas sahabatku.

"oh, if you ask that last week, i'll say that would be possible, seeing that you love your bag more that anything" sindirnya. Aku hanya tertawa. Sahabatku hanya melempar pandangan sinis padanya.

"berisik deh... btw, how's the wedding preparation?" tanya sahabatku.

Dia tersenyum dan memandangku, "how is it? dunno, all I know is my bride is ready" jawabnya sambil menicum pipiku. Aku hanya tersenyum.

Dari sudut mataku aku melihat sahabatku tersenyum. Ya, bagaimanapun dia tetap seorang wanita, dan dia pasti akan memilih untuk dicintai, cepat atau lambat. Kita lihat saja nanti.

-It's all fiction, just a thought-

Life is an adventure!

2011-05-15T14:59:00.004+07:00

"I miss college life, I want to go back to 4 years ago and being ITB student again"

It'a almost 3 years since my graduation, and surprisingly I heard that words more often now. Don't get me wrong, I do miss my college life, but that doesn't mean I want to go back there again. Imagine you have to redo all your college assignments, OSPEK, committee time, final project time... BLEH... no, I don't! I have enough of that things for a lifetime.

If I have to go back to school, I want to do entirely different thing; different major, different friends, different university, because I want to broaden my view. I've learned extraordinary things in 4 years I had at ITB, something that I'll never regret, but then again, that time has passed and I have to move on. So friends... instead of saying you want to do it again, let's just find something more interesting with our previous college experience as the baseline. Life is an adventure!

Some facts that gives me fever

2011-04-18T10:48:00.002+07:00

One of my best friend lost her BB phone including her phone number. She buy a new one with new phone number and doesn't know (or care to know) the number. When I ask her she says, "just BBm me".
Most people I've met doesn't care about mobile phone number anymore, first thing they ask to new people is 'what is you BB PIN?' or 'your facebook or twitter account?'
I forgot that I have BB messenger and SMS capability on my phone. All I've done so far is tweet and email. Even the telco employee doesn't care about the basic service anymore -_-
My mother starting to buzzing me to teach her how to use facebook, I WON'T!
Google's revenue for Q1 2011 is $8,3 billion, twice our company's revenue last YEAR.
'The parent' has unlimited resource for R&D and new service development, while we buzzing around about limited resource and make-it-zero-cost-if-you-can policy.
Back from Kalimantan where people ask me : "you tell me about broadband and un-linearity between traffic's growth and revenue, while our management forces us to get as many subs as possible no matter what happen, which one we should pay our attention best?" - my answer has to be, "do what our management told us to do, it's all heading the right way".
Smartphone penetration in our customers is less than 10%, with number 1 handset used in the market is Nokia 1200 series, something that makes me wanna cry :(
Someone told me to buy the new Nokia E7, and my response is kinda like, "do you want me to time travel back to 2004? my pleasure! who still using Nokia anyway"

*Just some pop-thought

Handset Infographic from VisionMobile

2011-03-23T09:17:00.001+07:00

Inside my bag

2011-02-10T10:29:00.005+07:00

I always want to do this post for a long time...

Bag : Charles & Keith brown tote bag

Inside :

Freakonomics --> I've been reading this book for quite long time... been lazy lately -_-
Damn! I love Indonesia Engravink notebook --> this is my workbook/diary, I write almost everthing here :)
Teddy bear print pouch --> it's cosmetic pouch, but I won't tell you what's inside :D
Folded umbrella --> It's quite heavy to bring umbrella everyday. But if you live in tropical country like Indonesia, it can't be help.
Flashy double pouch --> 1 compartment full of data-cable (for ipod, BB, and ext HD) and the other is for my WD external HD.
Western Digital external HD --> My life depend on this external HD, everything from my work docs to my mangascan collection and TVXQ video are inside this little blackbox.
iPod touch 3rd gen & earphone --> I feel so sad if I left this thing at home, seems like world turn black and white when iPod's not around :P
Folded shopping bag --> try to reduce my plastic bag use, use it for a quick shopping :)
Sennheiser PX 100 headphone --> ultimate experience in listening music. I love this headphone so much, to bad they're not producing this one anymore.

not in the picture: my wallet, Blackberry and Olympus pocket camera.

Tagged-post : Stylish blogger award

2011-02-01T12:46:00.004+07:00

I've been tagged by my friend Putri/Uti to make this post...

Accepting this award, I am asked to do the following:

1. Thank and link to the person who awarded me this award.

2. Share 8 things about myself.

3. Pay it forward to 8 bloggers that I have recently discovered.

4. Contact those bloggers and tell them about their awards.

20 things I learned about browsers and the web

2011-01-27T11:40:00.002+07:00

I'm a big fan of Google. Maybe from what i have written so far you can conclude that yourself. And as a Google fan, I also set my heart for Chrome as my favourite browser - more caused by its integrated search engine and Google translate in the url tab. So today, finally I installed Chrome in my office computer after a long time mutual relationship with Firefox (my 2nd favourite browser). Then after installed Chrome this time, I prepare myself for the first page that usually shown, "how google chrome can do" or "how you use your chrome" or other bla-bla-bla. But then, something new welcome me in this first Chrome page.

It's a visual illustrated book by Google Chrome team called 20 Things I Learned About Browsers and the Web. It's an interesting and easy to read book. One sentence caught my eye from its foreword :

"Life as citizens of the web can be liberating and empowering, but also deserves some self-education"

It's nice to know that they think of the user to understand about how this virtual universe work and how this giant web gives value to our daily life.

Nominees of the 83rd Academy Award

2011-01-26T09:16:00.004+07:00

The nomination of this year Academy Award is out! This is the most anticipating event for the film industry, and I always write about it. So... here the list and some of my two cent :)
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Some quick recap...

2011-01-25T16:07:00.007+07:00

68th annual Golden Globe 2011 result is out! The Social Network won Best Motion Picture - Drama. WOW... it's just a big WOW... *speechless* I thought the movie was great, but I never thought that it would be an award material... so speechless! But anyway, I'm not upset with the result, Natalie Portman won Best Actress for Black Swan, and Colin Firth won Best Actor for The King's Speech... and thank God The Tourist didn't win anything, it just weird to got nominated, and would be weirder if it won any.

Apple CEO, no other than 'the' Steve Jobs, announced his absence for medical purpose. It seems his health issue coming back to market. Apple COO Tim Cook once again cover his absence from CEO post and everybody scared up! Yes, Apple is Jobs and Jobs is Apple. But hey, it was decades after the launch of first Apple's Macintosh, and who knows how many mini and micro version of Steve Jobs that they already has inside the company?!?! :P

Official statement from Eric Schmidt through Google's blog : Larry Page will claim the CEO post at April this year! He said that finally Google doesn't need "adult supervision", and especially it seems that geeky-duo doesn't like to be supervised... How it would be? Dunno. Nobody knows. But on their 2011 vision at Harvard Business Review, Eric Schmidt said that this year is all mobile! Mobile everyone! Mobile! After Android market share boosted up to 25% in just a year (and especially Android makes Motorolla looks cool again), who knows what will they do this year.

-so un-analitic, un-structured, but hey... it's a recap anyway :P -

Good night dear void...

2011-01-17T22:46:00.002+07:00

"Sometimes I wonder about my life...
I lead a small life, valuable but small.
Do i do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave?
Shouldn't it be the other way around?
I dont really want an answer,
I just wanna send this cosmic question out into the void.
So, good night dear void..."

[Kathleen Kelly - You've Got Mail -1998]

2011-01-08T10:57:00.003+07:00

In a community or environment, or just a little group, there would be particular person that other rely on -the alpha, leader, main vocalist, idea thinker, etc. And then comes a day when he/she/they have to go separate way, walk they own different path... at that time we realize that we take them for granted.

But always see that little light shining above us all. Maybe we lose them, but that is His way to make us realize that we have to be better than who we already are. He just want us to re-think our life's objective, enrich our capability and make us better. We can lose friends, we can lose partner, we can be trapped in loneliness... but never we lose faith on our dream. That's how we evolve... that's our way of life.

-just a thought. after watch TVXQ comeback as duo and after my division lost one of our valuable thinker :) -

Angry Birds : Kill the pig!

2011-01-05T08:01:00.004+07:00

Say it, I'm a lagger when it comes to game. Angry Birds has been released for over a year, it is now available across 3 major touch-screen-lifestyle-smartphone platform : iOS, Android and Symbian. It is been downloaded for 12 million on iTunes and 50 million in total. It makes Rovio Mobile, its creator, rich and famous. And yes, I just starting to play it last night!

Addictive? yes! Angry Birds has the same vibe of addictive as Tetris. Its simple game-style, comical story and mass promotion creates quite a buzz in gaming universe. It is not a MMO games, that really become addicted to the 'social outsider' that want to find their own universe through virtual world. And nor part of farmville-family. Angry Birds does not ask you to become 'online socialite', Angry Birds gives you an object to be buzzed out on your social network.

I ask my friends to get opinion about this game. The girls opinion varied from "the birds are cute" to "I love their voice" and other la-la-la cute thing. And the boys comment on 'its brutal way to attack the opposite party'. It's kind like what will happen when Tony Stark has a soul of Samurai, massive destruction kamikaze, and the one doing it is a group of very low temper birds. For me, it is so satisfying to see all that structure collapse and that big-fat-pig explode. Just my kind of safe way to channeling anger.

Angry Birds is a simple game, with simple name, simple staging and simple style. It's become popular among mobile user because its low concentration play. Kind of game that suitable for people when they are on the bus or train, when they are waiting for something or in the queue-line, or just having fun with friends in need of great laugh. Rovio catch this behavior and develop the right game for the market. After Angry Birds, they launched Cut the Rope (you see, once again: simple name) which now one of highest grossing apps on iTunes. They repeat the formula, and gain more profit. Well, we'll see how long this low temper birds rules mobile gaming business.

2010 in a flash

2011-01-02T20:07:00.006+07:00

It is 2 years since I move to Jakarta
First time : take IELTS test, been hospitalized, take driving lesson, vacation abroad, snorkeling!
My brother got married :)
More friends move to Jakarta
Transfer to new department
Indonesia become 2nd largest population on Facebook
Indonesia rules twitter
Being so fascinated by Google (and also fall in love with Sergey Brin :D)
iPad launch
Obama visit Indonesia
TVXQ officially run with just 2 member :(
Committed to apply master study
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In Need of Revolution

2011-01-02T19:59:00.004+07:00

My blog needs something revolutionary in term of the content. And fact has prove that I was not a productive writer last year. So, through the blog of Pak Budi Rahardjo, I know about this program : postaday2011/postaweek2011. I realize that it would be hard for me to do post-a-day, so I think I will go with post-a-week but it won't be limitation for me to post more than one posting a week.

So here we go! Start today!

Tangled

2010-11-28T22:22:00.004+07:00

- a little post before I sleep-

When the last time you watch Disney animated classic that based on fairy tale? If you watch The Princess and the Frog, then that might be your recent. But I didn't watch that, then the last time maybe... Aladdin! Yeah, Aladdin! It's 90's movie and maybe the only Disney animated classic fairy tale that I like.

You know, I don't really into fairy tale. I'm into fable, like indonesian traditional story of Si Kancil (The Rabbit) simply because it is smart. But princess story? with prince charming? (please do remember your time with Shrek, we all know th

at prince charming is no more than a thugs!) I don't know, for me it's cheap! I like Aladdin for simple reason : first, Aladdin is not a prince and second, Jasmin has a tiger as a pet :D

So today, I watched Rapunzel - a tangled tale. It based on a traditional fairy tale of Rapunzel from Germany. And I think I like this movie, why? simple reasons: first, Eugene is not a prince and second, Rapunzel has a fry-pan as weapon. Seriously, how many girl bring pan everywhere as weapon? She's quite creative for that one.

The movie is all you can hope from a Disney animated classic, musical. They sing almost anytime and anywhere (and anyone), even the bandits sings. For you who miss this Disney classic theme, then you would like this movie. I feel a little nostalgic too, like back to the 90's with Aladdin, Beauty and The Beast and Lion King. The song itself not sound very special. I do recognize the duo part and the Rapunzel's song, but what really caught my ear is the closing song. I don't know who sings it, I wikipied it and found the name Grace Potter. Never heard of her... should google more.

So, that's all! Hehehe... not so creative for a review right... but please forgives me, it's all because I don't really into fairy tale and I'm quite sleepy... bubye.... :D

Boutiques : computer meet fashion, happy ending?

2010-11-18T06:40:00.006+07:00

"fashion comes and go, but style is forever" - Yves St. Laurent

That is one of the most wellknown quote in fashion industry, me myself, heard it everytime I watched Style Star on E! channel. "style is forever", maybe that part of the quote that inspired these bunch of 'computer nerd' and 'fashion nerd' from Google to collaborate in creating an online personalized fashion shop called Boutiques.com. Because Internet can immortalize almost everything. (-hey, I do not know that they hired fashion nerd too, I think the word 'fashion' does not match with 'nerd'-no offense ^_^)

broke, period!

2010-11-09T16:16:00.007+07:00

Do you know that when you're overseas a single message sent and received through your Blackberry messenger cost you Rp. 6500???

And do you know that a single window Blackberry messenger conversation has at least 3 lines of message??? maybe like...
A : hey, I'm at singapore right now...
B : oh really? buy me some keychains then :D
A : ok, no problem :)

And do you know that 1 singapore simple keychain cost you SGD$2 (~Rp.15.000) at the very least but that goddamn conversation cost you Rp. 19.500???

And what happen when you has 10-15 BB messenger conversation daily, with at least 20 line messages and you are overseas for 3 days??? Nothing happens until you get your phone bill at the end of the month...

And all of that will happens if you forget to turn off your data service or in my case there are some goddamn error in the system, so instead of registered in free blackberry international roaming package, the system read you as just stupid-soon-to-be-broke international roaming subscriber who turn on her data service when she's overseas, like me! Yes, LIKE ME!!!

Android vs iPhone vs Blackberry

2010-11-08T08:55:00.000+07:00

image taken from : http://androidandme.com

Social Network - You don't get to 500 million friends without making a few enemy

2010-11-07T19:06:00.009+07:00

...500 millions users

...26 years old...

$6.9 billions in valuation...

And yes, I'm talking about Mark Zuckerberg, the founder and current CEO of Facebook. I won't blog about him in a biographical type, actually I won't blog about him at all. What I will really blog about is the movie Social Network, which I just watched less than an hour ago. The movie Social Network, which is based on the founding of the biggest web-based social networking in the world- Facebook, is 2 hours long, spent $50 mio in budget, earn $130 mio in revenue, distributed by Columbia pictures and directed by David Fincher.

Kembali ke pojok : Meet cute???

2010-11-01T15:02:00.004+07:00

(pic: at Bakoel Koffie - Bellagio Mega Kuningan)

Pojokan itu tidak kosong. Saras menghela nafas kesal di pintu Caffeine for Life, memandang pojok favoritnya yang sekarang diduduki orang lain. Dengan muka agak ditekuk dia mendekati konter, disambut cengiran Komo si barista.

“abis digusur ya mbak?” sapa Komo.

I stuck in the corner of my room with boredom!

2010-09-18T22:20:00.003+07:00

Just come back from hangout with friends, grab lunch at Kedai at Kemang (recommended place, I think I'll go there again tomorrow) then watch 'The Switch' at Senayan City. Which is not so good movie. Why? First, I don't like Jennifer Anniston (Yes! I don't like her, sue me if you can't accept that!), second, I don't like this kind of not so romantic and not so comedy movie, third, I get a terrible mood swing!

AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Whatever! I don't know what to do, I don't want to sleep, I don't want to eat anything, I don't want to read anything and I don't have any idea what to write, I'm in the middle of an accute boredom. Help me... if you can.

2010-09-14T21:33:00.002+07:00

Ada tiga macam pekerjaan 'nyaman' di dunia ini:

1. Pekerjaan yang sesuai dengan passion orang tersebut, sehingga apapun yang terjadi saat pekerjaan itu dilakukan dapat diabaikan dengan mudah.

2. Pekerjaan yang menawarkan insentif yang menyenangkan, dapat berupa gaji oke atau teman-teman kerja yang ramah dan saling menolong. Masalah objek pekerjaannya sendiri bisa diabaikan.

3. Pekerjaan yang saking sibuknya tidak punya waktu untuk mengeluh atau menyerah. Kesehariannya cuman dipenuhi bekerja dan kadang tidak langsung merasakan penambahan gaji di rekening.

Sayangnya pekerjaan gw adalah tipe ke-4: tidak termasuk dalam ketiga tipe di atas.

Dibilang passion??? masih belum bisa jawab, tapi kayaknya enggak....

insentif yang menyenangkan??? gaji yah segitulah... teman kerja ya gitulah juga....

sibuk banget??? errr.... yang satu ini saya bisa dengan pasti bilang enggak!

jadi.... ya liat aja entar sampai ikatan dinasnya abis.... hehehehe...

Happy Eid Mubarak everyone... :)

Kembali ke pojok: Kisah Kita

2010-08-24T23:23:00.006+07:00

[This one inspired by the song Kisah Kita by Vidi Aldiano. I repeated this song over and over in my iPod this past few days, and still not over it :) Nice song and nice voice Vidi]

Terminal 2 bandara Soekarno-Hatta tetap padat seperti biasa, walau di petang hari seperti ini. Aku duduk di depan booth makanan siap saji yang ada di lorong depan bandara, menunggu. Sesekali memandang ke arah kiri dan kanan, mereka bisa datang dari keduanya tergantung dimana mereka berhenti, dan sampai saat ini tanda-tanda kehadiran mereka belum juga muncul. Aku melirik lagi arlojiku, masih sekitar dua setengah jam sampai keberangkatan, tapi aku belum check in. Mungkin aku salah mengambil jadwal pesawat, jam pulang kantor seperti ini jalanan pasti super macet, terkutuklah Jakarta dan kemacetannya.

"hah... limabelas menit lagi gak dateng, gw cabut deh..." gumamku, cukup keras ternyata, karena ada yang membalas.

"cabut apaan? cabut bulu?" suara yang kukenal. Aku menoleh dan menemukan empat orang yang sudah sedari tadi kutunggu-tunggu.

From Shinta-Jojo to $6 billion

2010-08-04T13:42:00.012+07:00

How you define the very word 'YouTube'? The first word popped up in my mind is video, the second is Google and the third is... Shinta Jojo :D

Actually, the third word will always be varied based on current 'highest watched' or most popular on that online broadcast service.

Shinta and Jojo, Indonesian version (and better looking :p) of Moymoy Palaboy being a trending topic for several days on Twitter (under topic 'keong racun'). Me, of course the late response one, don't know what this 'keong racun' means. When I know about them, voila... they already come to my office for a business deal(?) or partnership maybe... I don't know the exact purpose.

I-E-A-I-A-I-O

2010-07-26T08:06:00.004+07:00

MORNIIIINGGGGG!!!!!

I don't know what happened to me but suddenly I have a hell of energy this morning. I came at office unconsciously early (because my watch is 15 minutes ahead), then at office... voila... mbak Niken finally back at work (she's in days off last week, and I miss her so much), and then again... someone buzz me on gtalk with unexpected news... gossip in the morning ladies... hahahaha... and one again, my payroll will come today (wide-grin :D). Hell yeah!

The title of this post is a song from System of a Down. I listened to it on the way to Jakarta yesterday, and it keeps playing around in my head. And right now, in this blissfully morning of mine, I keep humming the songs, it's the kind of song you want to jump and headbang to... and with this energy of mine, I think I need a healthy session of heandbang :D

So worlds.... me and my comrades want to says good morning to you all.... MOOOORRRRRNNNIIIIIINNNNGGGGG!!!!

Sleepless week...

2010-07-19T11:52:00.008+07:00

Last week is a very hectic week for me. Began with strategic planning workshop in Bandung, and then my brother's wedding preparation and yesterday, Pagelaran LSS ITB Jakarta. All of this activity paid me less sleep... just 3 or 4 hour a day -_-

- strategic planning workshop -
2 days at Novotel Bandung, with almost all day stay indoor and just stay sit in conference room actually, brainstorming here and there and produce more storms inside my head. Okay, I don't want to re-run this one. Just read this, then maybe you know what I mean...
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Trapped, No Brainery and Heisenberg... should we add Schrodinger's cat.... blalalalla...

2010-07-13T11:18:00.004+07:00

I'm trapped! in the middle of a discussion which I'm not part of it, but have to pay attention to it, with no slightest idea where the discussion head to.

You know, when you see people with power or at least pretend that they have power to change things, talk to each other with judging note and pretend to discuss problem which they don't (they just toying around with not-so-new idea and positioned it like you'll die if you not talking about it, and no intention to make it end), and you realize that all this crap they talking about is not contribute to the big solution you think you have to produce by the end of the session, then you doomed! You'll got nothing, you'll not produce anything and forget anything about contribution to the bigger part, you're trapped! nowhere to run, with solution that never come out and stone-head people who think they too important to listen others.

In the middle of this indefinite discussion, I'm distracting myself with another complex concept, in this case : Heisenberg's uncertainty concept. At first I thought it's a math problem, specific to observation theory, but then I found out that it's physic, part of it was observation theory, and the small part of quantum mechanics. Haha... there I said it, no-brainer-blabber of qantum mechanics...

But here it is, I try to link the theory I just read to the specific condition i'm trapped into. Heisenberg build the concept specific to particle observation, I make it an analogy for observing human behavior.

In simple, the uncertainty concept on observing particle told us that when we know the exact velocity of particle, we'll never know it's exact position and vice versa. Simplify to a simple conclusion "you'll never know anything perfectly, in particle or even person". Linkage to my current purgatory here... these people are babbling about a subject, with different view, where they make it a absolute condition for everything about the subject. But hey, how come you know it's absolute for everything when you narrow your view just to a little part of it??? Can we just define the whole framework first then observe it in any angle you people think you expert on then we can summarize those up to a solution that maybe not perfect but a solution that we can live it through. It just the same with observing the position of particle in a wave packet on Heisenberg theorem.

Haaahhh.... here I am, babbling no-brainery about something high level thing like quantum mechanics with the whatever linkage it has with human behavior, in the middle of a what-the-he*l-they-talking-about discussion! I'm doomed!

2010-07-13T10:44:00.003+07:00

"good shoes will brought you to a wonderful place"

Shizuka Toudou [Hanayori Dango]

Flat

2010-07-09T18:11:00.003+07:00

it's been a long time since the last time I post something here...
it's not because I'm busy, yes I'm in a tight schedule right now, but not literally busy... it's just, i don't have anything to write or at least I don't have anything interesting enough to write.

even now... when I'm typing this will-be-short-post... I don't have anything to write...
haaahhhh... sorry blog... it's just my life feel so flat this day... flat and boring!

Google goes politics...

2010-06-04T09:27:00.003+07:00

As internet user, we all have known Google's long culture of innovation to meet the user's need and find better value for advertiser. So, here's something new. Yesterday, through their official blog, Google announce their own platform for campaign called You choose 2010 Campaign Toolkit in Youtube.
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Merekam Purnama

2010-05-31T18:00:00.004+07:00

Ya Tuhan...
Ingatkanlah aku selalu pada satu malam di Karimun Jawa
Saat purnama terpendar, dan riak laut bersinar...

Ingatkanlah aku pada malam ku memuja kasihMu dalam bisu
Mengingat betapa rendahnya aku, dalam sebaris sabdaMu
'maka nikmat Tuhanmu yang manakah yang engkau dustakan?'

[29 Mei 2010, Pantai Nirwana - Karimun Jawa]

2010-05-20T22:41:00.002+07:00

Ben je boos, pluk enn roos!

Zet hem op je hoed, dan ben je morgen weer goed!

If you feel angry, pick a rose!

Put it on your hat, and you'll feel better in the morning!

[anonymous]

What if I don't get any rose??? Will I wake up still angry???

Kopitiam Oey

2010-05-10T21:38:00.005+07:00

At my last visit to Singapore, I became a fan of Kopitiam across Singapore Management University. At first, I thought Kopitiam is somekind of coffee franchise like Starbucks or Coffee Bean, but today I know what Kopitiam means.

Di pojokan kamar : Melamun

2010-05-07T23:50:00.004+07:00

7 Mei 2010, Pukul 23.35

Lampu kamar sudah kumatikan, hanya tersisa sedikit pendar kehijauan dari lampu meja yang biasa menemaniku tidur. Ini malam tak terasa lebih istimewa dari biasanya, ini malam wajarnya tidak beda dengan malam-malam sebelumnya. Jika pun ada yang membuat malam ini berbeda, adalah karena ini malam sabtu, dan tidak ada yang lebih membebaskan selain malam sabtu.

7 Mei 2010, Pukul 23.40

Tidakkah waktu 5 menit terasa sangat cepat terlewati saat kau berpikir?

Aku mengalaminya selama 2 minggu ini. Satu tugas riset sederhana yang dengan kekerdilan otakku hanya bisa diselesaikan dalam waktu 2 minggu, harusnya bisa lebih cepat. Dalam dua minggu itu, terdapat beberapa 5 menit yang terlewati dengan cepat, menghasilkan beberapa kalimat informatif dan mungkin jika aku sedang beruntung, kalimat inspiratif. Kemudian dalam dua minggu itu pun, terdapat lebih banyak lagi 5 menit yang sangat lambat, dilewati dengan pandangan hampa ke monitor dan kerlingan sebal pada jarum arloji, biasanya diakhiri dengan keluhan sebal, 'mengapa lama sekali menuju jam 5 sore'.

7 Mei 2010, Pukul 23.45

'fifteen minute to midnight', aku memasukkan kalimat itu ke box putih dibawah tulisan Google. Satu mesin virtual mahadahsyat yang membuatku menyadari betapa Tuhan menciptakan manusia tidak untuk kesia-siaan. Ada pikiran luar biasa di luar sana yang bisa membuat satu jaringan telepati luarbiasa sehingga setiap manusia yang bertanya padanya dapat dihubungkan pada jawaban yang paling tepat menurutnya, dimana umumnya memang tepat. Aku mengetik kalimat itu tanpa niat apa-apa, hanya iseng, yang kudapat adalah satu halaman teks berlatar putih dengan tulisan berwarna biru dan hitam, tiga posisi teratas adalah berita tengah malam, judul album band Linkin Park, dan judul video Iron Maiden - two minutes to midnight. Sedikit meleset, untuk alasan tak jelas, mungkin itu tak masalah.

7 Mei 2010, Pukul 23.50

Di kamar berukuran 3m x 2m ini terdapat 4 buah jam yang menyala. Jam dinding menunjukkan 23.50, jam di komputer menunjukkan 00.08, jam meja menunjukkan 00.10, dan arlojiku menunjukkan 00.18. Ah, tak ada yang sama, bahkan waktu adalah satu bentuk relativitas. Yap, Einstein memang jenius.

7 Mei 2010, Pukul 23.55

Di dunia dimana teknologi macam telekomunikasi adalah nyata, jarak bukanlah penghalang sama sekali. Dan ketika kerumunan virtual bernama internet memanjangkan jaringnya melalui entitas bernama Blackberry, waktu sudah sangat tidak relevan untuk dipermasalahkan. Pada jam segini, kotak mungil canggih itu berbunyi, mengantarkan serangkaian doa dari sahabat di bagian kota yang lain. Wahai kawan, aku berharap segala doamu itu terkabul, dan bersyukurlah aku kepada Tuhan atas skenario tak terduganya untuk menghubungkan kehidupan kita berdua. Tak ada yang lebih rumit dan lebih indah dari automatisasi alam semesta.

7 Mei 2010, Pukul 24.00 - 8 Mei 2010, Pukul 00.00

Angka 22 tak pernah terasa lebih bermakna dibanding saat ini. Biasanya dia tak lebih dari nilai diskrit yang terdapat di antara 21 dan 23. Dia bisa dibagi 2 untuk menghasilkan 11, dan bisa dibagi 11 untuk menghasilkan 2. Jika angka dalam bilangan 11 dijumlahkan akan menghasilkan 2. Dan waktu ini adalah tengah malam, dalam penanggalan dapat diartikan 2 hal : berakhirnya tanggal sebelumnya, dan berawalnya tanggal sesudahnya. Ada banyak angka 2 yang muncul saat ini, dan angka 22 benar-benar terasa lebih bermakna. Hai Pratiwi... Selamat ulang tahun :)

Unclear

2010-05-06T19:18:00.005+07:00

Sri Mulyani and World Bank maybe the hottest topic in Indonesia this last two days. It's been the trending topic on Twitter yesterday, and it's all over the TV. There's debate at Metro TV yesterday talking about it, special headline in TVone and others.

Me on the other hand, doesn't give special interest in the topic itself. I like Sri Mulyani, as Indonesian woman I'm very proud to have one of our own being internationally praised like that, especially when our people doesn't valued her enough. Something that caught my interest is how the media blow up the topic in a very extreme way. They're intentionally bring up the past Century Gate issue, create a debate with surprisingly wrong people as panelist, or empasize their own point of view in a discussion. Wow, how far they want to bring Indonesian people from true information???

This pattern is what media futurist called old-media-way. Pull viewer attention with somekind of controversial content so the rating is up and advertiser willing to pay more for the spot, *bleh* very evil kind of way.

I spent this week researching on an information and media based company whose mission is focused on bring the most relevant information to people, so when I look at how our media blow up an issue in unclear direction, honestly, I hate it. Our media has to find another way to get profit instead of confuse people with their unclear information.

2010-05-05T14:40:00.001+07:00

"knowledge always good, and certainly always better than ignorance"
[Sergey Brin]

Short term goal : study abroad!

2010-05-02T19:23:00.004+07:00

I've decided to take Dutch language course at Erasmus Taalcentrum. Some of my friends questioning me, "why dutch?", my answer is simple: "I want to take my master there!".

There, I said it. Sometimes when you want to commit to something you have to say it out loud, so people who hear it will be reminder of your commitment. And so I said it.

Until last year, I still don't have any particular plan for my future, short term or long term. I think about it over and over then I come with the decision, yes, I want to take master in technology and innovation management, and yes, I want to take it abroad.

Then, why Dutch? 3 reasons:

1. Dutch is in the list of country that cover in Depkominfo scholarship. I don't have enough money to go on my own, so I have to rely on scholarship, and Depkominfo is my first priority,

2. Netherlands is in Europe, and it will be easier for me to have a euro trip kekekeke... :D

3. I will have access to most of books and documents about VOC and Hindia colonization. Haha... there it is, the history-freak-side of mine :)

The timeline is a year from now, after I finish my 2-years contract with my company, and I want to do a little research for my thesis topic. For now, it still "managing innovation in telecommunication company to face the era of internet domination". Yap, it based on my experience so far in this company. The topic will improve, and I have to do more research on that.

So, my friends... if you have any information or any input for me, I'm open for discussion.. and wish me luck... :)

Trip to Temasek...

2010-04-30T23:02:00.004+07:00

Last weekend, I go to Singapore with my friends. This is my first time going to another country and I'm so excited. I've planned this trip for almost 4 months. The initial plan is to visit Singapore all the way to Malacca. But then I realized that Universal Studio is doing soft opening, so I revise my plan and add Universal Studio on my itinerary.

The trip go out well. I visited the place I want to visit, and take a lot of picture of anything that caught my interest. Most of people come to Singapore to shop, but for me, going there just to walk around and take several pictures is enough. The urban planning is amazing. From how they manage to build modern building along side the old one, and how they centralized the citizen activity and the ultimate is they MRT system. The system is so well organized, from the route to the way people buy ticket. From the rules in the platform to the traffic. Everything is well organized and preserved. Actually, I thinking about reside in Singapore just because their MRT system, considering the way I go to work every morning using kopaja, that thought is very tempting.

Here I attach some of the pictures I take, to bad the camera is not that good (people, SonyCybershot pocket is really-really not recommended, buy something else if you want a pocket camera) and my photography skill is almost lower than poor, but at least I take pictures right??? :)

3idiots: the best Rp.50000 I've ever spent

2010-03-30T00:03:00.003+07:00

Okay, this is the read-the-title-then-stop-reading-and-go-watch-it kind of movie review. It doesn't makes any different what I write in this blog, the fact is clear: you are an idiot! An idiot movie watcher who can spent million on sucks movie but doesn't watch this one, complete idiot! Even I curse myself why I didn't watch it earlier... Oh yeah I remember, just one studio in one city with a bunch of competitor watcher who can buy the ticket anytime and that hell distributor who just give this country one copy of the roll... Yes, just ONE! That's why I didn't watch it earlier.

3idiots is not just a movie, it's an answer. For a person who spent 4 years of her life studying to be an engineer who didn't do any good at it, graduate with average GPA, with no passion for specific career and have no idea what kind of dream she wants to reach after college, yep, a person like me. Watch the movie just makes me feels like being called 'idiot' by my master-of-all-master-teacher Prof. Jon Sapiie in front of the class but with different circumtances, he's laughing (which is impossible in real life, because if prof jon calls you 'idiot' during class, it means you've crossed the line and got special prize: his anger). The story is about the kind of problem I always encounter this past one year, future and passion. Oh, passion, my eternal mystery.

The punch line is typical: do what you want to do, work at something that you really passionate about, and don't let yourself died in regret. The special thing is the plot. It's still bollywood movie, with corny lyrics song and i-want-to-throw-up-just-because-i-watch-it kind of dance, but the dialogue is made simple, simple and superb hilarious. It makes 3 hours flies easily, at the end you just realize your throat hurt from too much laugh and your lips dry because you forget to take a sip of your pepsi (or worse: you just forget to buy any drink- like me).

The ending is a typical too-good-too-be-true with bollywood style of happy ending, I thought it's a little let down after 3/4 plot full of simple surprise. But over all this is a great movie, as I say in the beginning of this post: you're such an idiot if you still spent time reading this post but didn't watch the movie. Go watch it! If you find it difficult to get ticket, just buy the DVD at ambass or kota kembang or other similar market, or just download it somewhere in the net. It's a must-watch movie, but it's not your fault if the release is limited, so... just find yourself a way to watch it :)
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(title unknown)

2010-03-22T17:26:00.002+07:00

Aku melihat ke barat dari tempatku duduk. Ke arah matahari yang terbenam diantara beton-beton ibukota. Satu hari lagi terlewat dengan desahan nafas... satu lagi hari yang kusesalkan.

Aku ingat satu pesan dari trainer sebuah pelatihan softskill yang kuikuti dulu...
"ingatlah baik-baik, hidup itu sulit!"

Dan ternyata, baru sekarang aku benar-benar merasakannya:
Hidup memang sulit.

dan sekali lagi aku diingatkan:
sulit bukan berarti mustahil.

yah... mungkin aku harus mengingat kembali pelajaran sejarah yang kusukai itu. Manusia-manusia itu tak akan tercatat namanya dalam sejarah jika mereka tidak berhasil melalui hidupnya dengan bermakna.

Mungkin aku hanya butuh usaha lebih keras... usaha lebih keras...

The winner....

2010-03-08T13:58:00.004+07:00

Too bad Avatar didn't win Best Picture...

Too bad James Cameron didn't win Best Director....

VIVA Hurt Locker :)

Best Picture
The Hurt Locker

Directing
Kathryn Bigelow - The Hurt Locker

Actor in a Leading Role
Jeff Bridges - Crazy Heart

Actress in a Leading Role
Sandra Bullock - The Blind Side

Actor in a Supporting Role
Christoph Waltz - Inglourious Basterds

Actress in a Supporting Role
Mo’Nique - Precious: Based on the Novel ‘Push’ by Sapphire

Animated Feature Film
Up - Pete Docter

Art Direction
Avatar - Art Direction: Rick Carter dan Robert Stromberg; Set Decoration: Kim Sinclair

Cinematography
Avatar - Mauro Fiore

Costume Design
Sandy Powell - The Young Victoria

Film Editing
The Hurt Locker - Bob Murawski and Chris Innis

Foreign Language Film
The Secret in Their Eyes (El Secreto de Sus Ojos)-Argentina

Makeup
Star Trek - Barney Burman, Mindy Hall dan Joel Harlow

Music (Original Score)
Up - Michael Giacchino

Music (Original Song)
The Weary Kind - Crazy Heart

Sound Editing
The Hurt Locker - Paul N.J. Ottosson

Sound Mixing
The Hurt Locker - Paul N.J. Ottosson dan Ray Beckett

Almost Alice

2010-03-04T11:42:00.002+07:00

Will watch Alice in the Wonderland 3D today. Can't wait to see Johnny Depp plays Madhatter.

This is the Almost Alice album, not the original soundtrack, but almost the original soundtrack :p

The full list of the album is bellow... just listen it... it's amazing!!!

1.	"Alice"	Avril Lavigne	3:35
2.	"The Poison"	The All-American Rejects	3:53
3.	"The Technicolor Phase"	Owl City	4:27
4.	"Her Name Is Alice"	Shinedown	3:38
5.	"Painting Flowers"	All Time Low	3:25
6.	"Where's My Angel"	Metro Station	3:39
7.	"Strange"	Tokio Hotel and Kerli	3:51
8.	"Follow Me Down"	3OH!3 and Neon Hitch	3:23
9.	"Very Good Advice"	Robert Smith	2:58
10.	"In Transit"	Mark Hoppus and Pete Wentz	4:02
11.	"Welcome to Mystery"	Plain White T's	4:28
12.	"Tea Party"	Kerli	3:29
13.	"The Lobster Quadrille"	Franz Ferdinand	2:08
14.	"Always Running Out of Time"	Motion City Soundtrack	3:00
15.	"Fell Down a Hole"	Wolfmother	5:04
16.	"White Rabbit"	Grace Potter and the Nocturnals	3:21

Poetic picture

2010-03-02T13:53:00.002+07:00

Check this out guys... PoeticPicture's Portrait... all I can say is LOVE THIS!!!

Monolog

2010-02-24T11:53:00.003+07:00

Ritual sabtu pagi. Seperti biasa, hanya aku dan dia, secangkir kopi hitam dan secangkir teh hijau panas. Cafe ini masih sepi seperti biasa, dan dia pun memulai monolognya dengan kalimat yang sama...

"haaahhh... apa gw resign aja ya???"

Pertanyaan retoris itu kembali terlontar dari mulutnya. Aku tak menjawab, karena memang aku tak perlu menjawab, kita berdua sama-sama tahu bahwa dia tak akan pernah resign. Lima tahun mengenalnya aku jadi menganggap pekerjaan akuntan publik hanya cocok untuk orang tukang ngeluh, karena mereka akan mengeluh ingin resign setiap 3 jam sekali, setiap hari, setiap minggu selama peak season, setiap tahunnya. Tapi lima tahun pula aku mengenalnya untuk tahu bahwa dia terlalu mencintai pekerjaan itu untuk bisa resign. Karena itu aku tak perlu menjawabnya, aku hanya butuh tersenyum.

"gila, bisa sinting gw kalo kerja kayak gini terus, nyokap gw udah ribut aja ngeliat jadwal gw balik ke rumah. ya mau gimana lagi, gini kerjaan gw..."

Dia kembali memulai monolog panjangnya, hal yang akan terus diulang olehnya, ini adalah ritual sabtu pagiku selama 5 tahun terakhir dan monolog itu akan berakhir dengan...

"...hah... gw capek"

Aku kembali tersenyum. Memperhatikan dia mengacak rambutnya sendiri, rambut yang jika tidak kuingatkan mungkin akan lupa dia potong. Kenapa rambut laki-laki harus selalu cepat tumbuh? menjengkelkan sekali melihatnya gondrong. Aku mendorong cangkir berisi teh hijau panas ke arahnya.

"minum dulu" kataku.

Dia melirik cangkir teh itu dan tersenyum kecil. Perasaan itu kembali muncul.

Setiap kali aku melihatnya tersenyum, walau di sela kesal yang teramat sangat, senyum itu selalu muncul. Aku sangat menyukai senyumnya itu, membuatku ingin mengacak rambutnya, tertawa dan memeluknya erat. Aku tak perduli dengan segala keluh kesahnya asalkan senyum itu selalu muncul pada akhirnya.

"lu kok tahan dengerin keluhan gw?" tanyanya sambil mengangkat cangkir itu.
"dah kebiasa" balasku.
"hmmm... seandainya Ira gitu ya... hah, kemarin gw ketemu dia..." dan monolognya kembali dimulai. Masih monolog yang pernah kudengar, hanya dengan topic yang tak pernah bisa kunikmati.

Ceritakanlah padaku semua kesalmu, tentang pekerjaanmu, keluargamu, teman-temanmu, tapi kumohon jangan tentang dia. Lima tahun aku mengenalmu, dan tidak sampai setahun kau mengenalnya. Aku lebih banyak mengenalnya lewat keluh kesahmu dan bukan cerita bahagiamu, lalu mengapa harus dia?

Monolognya tetap sepanjang biasanya, dengan setiap kata yang seperti menyayat langsung ke tubuhku. Oh Tuhan, ini sakit sekali, aku butuh anesthesia.

"... tu cewek tuh bikin gw kesel setengah mati, udah tau kerjaan gw ribet, tambah diribetin urusan dia... ngomongnya cerewet lagi... haahhh... dasar cewek!" monolognya selesai.

Aku memperhatikannya erat-erat, menunggu tusukan terakhir yang aku tahu akan datang... dia tersenyum. Dia tersenyum seperti halnya senyum saat dia mengakhiri monolognya yang lain. Betapa senyum yang sama memberikan efek yang berlawanan padaku, membuatku bahagia dan menyiksaku juga. Aku diam, menutup mata, menekan rasa sakit itu sekuatnya.

Selalu aku ingin bertanya, aku yang mengenalmu lebih lama, aku yang mengenalmu lebih baik, aku yang bisa mendengar semua keluhmu tanpa protes dan aku yang selalu melewati ritual sabtu pagi ini selamat lima tahun terakhir, hanya aku dan kamu, lalu mengapa ada dia? mengapa aku selalu melihat senyummu untuk dia?

... aku tak pernah mengerti.

Wake up call...

2010-02-18T12:21:00.003+07:00

"you're full of energy and always passionate in everything you're doing"

That's my wake up call.
Lately, I'm kind of looking down at myself, being confused of what I'm best at and my actual value. It affects me badly, I lost my spirit at work and think about how small the benefit I give to my surrounding, I reach my lowest point of self esteem. But I got my wake up call this morning. That sentence enough for me. I remember the time when I was in Lustrum VII committee, someone told me this...

"kamu tuh leutik-leutik tapi euweuh kacape, tau kelinci energizer? tah kamu banget itu teh"

Maybe I'm not looking at myself clearly. There's un-optimized values lying in me, waiting to be awaken. It's time to wake up and seize every moment I have and maximize every strong point in me. FIGHTING!!!

82nd Academy Award : Nominee

2010-02-03T09:57:00.005+07:00

There's 10 best-picture nominee at this year's Oscar. Once again, 10! First time in 60 years of Oscars tradition to have 10 nominee instead of the usual 5. For me, it's the right way to do... because last year movie line up is incredible! You can see the complete list here.

I won't talk to much for the nominee line up. Actually I agree with 80-90% of them. One thing I regret most is I delay myself to watch The Hurt Locker and it turns out to get 9 nominations, together with Avatar. Why? because I hate war movie! It hurts me too much. Romance or sad movie with too much melancholic scene won't affect me at all, but war movie is another story. But seems that I have to watch it soon before the award presentation at March 7. Lets watch all 10 best picture nominee before March 7!

Best Picture

Avatar
The Blind Side
District 9
An Education
The Hurt Locker
Inglourious Basterds
A Serious Man
Precious: Based on the Novel "Push" by Sapphire
Up
Up in the Air

Best Director

Kathryn Bigelow – The Hurt Locker
James Cameron – Avatar
Lee Daniels – Precious: Based on the Novel "Push" by Sapphire
Jason Reitman – Up in the Air
Quentin Tarantino – Inglourious Basterds

Best Actor in the leading role

Jeff Bridges – Crazy Heart
George Clooney – Up in the Air
Colin Firth – A Single Man
Morgan Freeman – Invictus
Jeremy Renner – The Hurt Locker

Best Actress in the leading role

Sandra Bullock – The Blind Side
Helen Mirren – The Last Station
Carey Mulligan – An Education
Gabourey Sidibe – Precious: Based on the Novel "Push" by Sapphire
Meryl Streep – Julie & Julia

Best Actor in the supporting role

Matt Damon – Invictus
Woody Harrelson – The Messenger
Christopher Plummer – The Last Station
Stanley Tucci – The Lovely Bones
Christoph Waltz – Inglourious Basterds

Best Actress in the supporting role

Penélope Cruz – Nine
Vera Farmiga – Up in the Air
Maggie Gyllenhaal – Crazy Heart
Anna Kendrick – Up in the Air
Mo'Nique – Precious: Based on the Novel "Push" by Sapphire

Best Original Screenplay

The Hurt Locker – Mark Boal
Inglourious Basterds – Quentin Tarantino
The Messenger – Alessandro Camon and Oren Moverman
A Serious Man – Joel Coen and Ethan Coen
Up – Bob Peterson and Pete Docter

Best Adapted Screenplay

District 9 – Neill Blomkamp and Terri Tatchell
An Education – Nick Hornby
In the Loop – Jesse Armstrong, Simon Blackwell, Armando Ianucci and Tony Roche
Precious: Based on the Novel "Push" by Sapphire – Geoffrey Fletcher
Up in the Air – Jason Reitman and Sheldon Turner

Best Animated Feature

Coraline – Henry Selick
Fantastic Mr. Fox – Wes Anderson
The Princess and the Frog – Ron Clements and John Musker
The Secret of Kells – Tomm Moore and Nora Twomey
Up – Bob Peterson and Pete Docter

Best Original Score

Avatar – James Horner
Fantastic Mr. Fox – Alexandre Desplat
The Hurt Locker – Marco Beltrami and Beck Sanders
Sherlock Holmes – Hans Zimmer
Up – Michael Giacchino

Summary:

9 nominations: Avatar and The Hurt Locker
8 nominations: Inglourious Basterds
6 nominations: Precious: Based on the Novel "Push" by Sapphire and Up in the Air
5 nominations: Up
4 nominations: District 9, Nine and Star Trek
3 nominations: An Education, Crazy Heart, The Princess and the Frog and The Young Victoria
2 nominations: A Serious Man, The Blind Side, Fantastic Mr. Fox, Invictus, The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus, The Last Station, The Messenger, Sherlock Holmes and The White Ribbon

Coba Katakan

2010-02-01T11:55:00.002+07:00

"aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan.
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa.
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti.
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini"
[Coba Katakan - Maliq & D'essentials]

This song keeps playing over and over in my head... first time watching Maliq & D'essentials live performance at New Day for Indonesian Music event by LangitMusik Telkomsel last saturday. Really great performance and the music composition at the performance is more fabulous than the one in the recording. And one thing I really like from their songs... it's trying to make us see the reality of something. Dream and hope is one thing... but still... they're imaginary. Real act will bring them to life.

Daily topic...

2010-01-30T21:14:00.002+07:00

i'm looking for daily post topic... I found some blog that keep up with something's daily, like teh Nisa with crane-origami photos... or kang Muy that start posting one picture everyday...

Doing this un-ordinary things can keep up our daily spirit and push us to find anything interesting in our daily routine. Once I heard this kind of idea at a seminar with Yoris Sebastian. The problem is... I can't decide what kind of topic I want to commit, any suggestion???

Kembali ke pojok : perang bubat dan dilarang nikah

2010-01-29T19:44:00.004+07:00

Saya baru saja membaca satu posting di blog Serba Sejarah, sedikit komentar dan pengantar tentang sejarah Perang Bubat. Bukan postingan baru, tapi menarik perhatian saya. Seperti diketahui bahwa peristiwa bubat menjadi satu tonggak fundamental perubahan hubungan masyarakat sunda dengan jawa, khususnya terkait pernikahan.

Saya jadi teringat beberapa cerita teman yang pacaran backstreet gara-gara yang satu sunda dan yang satu lagi jawa. Atau yang lamarannya ditolak ortu sang kekasih karena kasus yang sama. Waktu mendengar ceritanya saya cuman komentar, "weleh... weleh... masih ada ya yang begituan". Buat saya sendiri atau mungkin keluarga saya, yang notabene sunda murni secara turun-temurun, hal ini sudah tak dipikirkan lagi. Apalagi semenjak salah seorang bibi saya menikah dengan orang jawa, gak ada yang aneh tuh.... jadi kami sudah tak terlalu ambil pusing lagi.

Yah, sedikit banyak saya masih merasa bingung ketika ada orang yang masih meributkan perbedaan ini, walau sebenernya kembali ke keyakinan setiap orangnya lagi dan saya tetap harus menghormatinya (tapi tetep aja pengen komentar :D). Toh sekarang suku bangsa sudah sangat bercampur. Saya punya teman yang punya nama Gusti Ayu tapi menulis suku bangsanya Sunda (kekekeke... iya gak yu??? :D) atau kalau mau ditilik beberapa pupuhu LSS justru orang jawa (walau ngomongnya sunda banget, bisa ngomong bilingual lah...). Atau beberapa orang sunda yang lebih fasih bahasa Jawa. Yah... apapun sukunya masih Indonesia kan??? atau lebih luasnya, masih manusia kan???

Ya gitu deh... bahasan perang bubat itu pasti nyindir ke pernikahan lintas suku ini. hmmm... saya jadi berpikir, sampai kapan luka hati di masyarakat sunda akibat peristiwa ini akan sembuh??? Dan butuh berapa lama untuk satu nilai kultural seperti ini akan hilang (oops... yg ini punya arti ganda). Jadi ingat cerita teman saya Bayu yang dulu menjabat Ketua bidang Seni dan Budaya di LSS saat kami menjadi pengurus. Dia satu waktu diundang untuk mengisi kuliah mengenai budaya sunda dan ada peserta kuliah yang bertanya mengenai adanya aturan adat tak resmi yang melarang orang sunda dan orang jawa menikah, saat itu bayu menjawab:

"itu mungkin efek dari perang bubat dulu, tapi santai kok, kalo saya gak keberatan nikah ama siapa aja".

Wehehehehe... diluar kenyataan bahwa dia narsis luarbiasa tapi ya sebenernya itu intinya, balik lagi ke setiap orangnya, keberatan atau enggak?!?! Kalau udah niat mah pasti 'gunung kan kudaki, lautan kan kusebrangi' deh... hahahhaa... lebaaaaayyyyy!

ME WANT ONE!!!!!!!

2010-01-27T14:42:00.003+07:00

I WANT IT!!! I WANT IT!!! I WANT IT!!!

Remember

2010-01-21T11:16:00.000+07:00

"Just remember 10 years ago... When you curse the world if they compare you to other people. Remember the time when it's really hard to make people see your true self pass all the label and condition. Remember the time when you give your best just to make people recognize your value. And remember the pain you feel deep down in your heart when all your hardwork just gave no change at all. Just remember that, and stop doing things because that's what people want from you. You can't make yourself loved, but you can love yourself!"
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langit musik

2010-01-20T14:11:00.005+07:00

Guys... try this out... Indonesian music online store... www.langitmusik.com...
It's LOCAL, LEGAL, EASY, AFFORDABLE, and PORTABLE... it's music!

... and don't forget to tell me your opinion

-yang terbaik bagi musik indonesia, terbaik juga bagimu-

Golden Globe 2010!

2010-01-18T12:17:00.002+07:00

The winner list is out!

As expected, Avatar won Best Motion Picture - Drama and Best Director for James Cameron, it will be a huge scandal if they don't win. I love the winner line up, there's Sandra Bullock for The Blind Side, Robert Downey Jr. , Meryl Streep and of course the incredible Christoph Waltz for his great performance in Inglourious Basterds. Up won Best Animated feature film and Best Original Score. Too bad 'I see you' didn't get the Best Original Song, but it's okay...

Here is the list for the motion picture category only, you can see the full list of the winner here. Can't wait to see how Oscar will come out in March, they're not even release the nominee BLEH... But yeah, lets wait! May the best movie win!

Best Motion Picture - Drama
AVATAR

Best Performance by an Actress in a Motion Picture - Drama
Sandra Bullock – The Blind Side

Best Performance by an Actor in a Motion Picture - Drama
Jeff Bridges – Crazy Heart
Best Motion Picture - Comedy Or Musical
The Hangover

Best Performance by an Actress in a Motion Picture - Comedy Or Musical
Meryl Streep – Julie & Julia

Best Performance by an Actor in a Motion Picture - Comedy Or Musical
Robert Downey Jr. – Sherlock Holmes

Best Performance by an Actress In A Supporting Role in a Motion Picture
Mo'nique – Precious: Based On The Novel Push By Sapphire

Best Performance by an Actor In A Supporting Role in a Motion Picture
Christoph Waltz – Inglourious Basterds

Best Animated Feature Film
Up

Best Foreign Language Film
The White Ribbon (Das Weisse Band - Eine Deutsche Kindergeschichte) (Germany)

Best Director - Motion Picture
James Cameron – Avatar

Best Screenplay - Motion Picture
Jason Reitman, Sheldon Turner - Up In The Air

Best Original Score - Motion Picture
Michael Giacchino - Up

Best Original Song - Motion Picture
"The Weary Kind (Theme From Crazy Heart)" – Crazy Heart

Anomali on Friday Night

2010-01-15T23:09:00.001+07:00

Just another friday night with friends, after office hour hang out to Anomali at Senopati, quality talk-quality time, and a cup of latte.

This week maybe the busiest week in my ten-months-work and on the other hand, it also the most interesting week. The hectic schedule makes me has no time to contact my friend via IM, not even Ayu, Zakki or Ditha. And now, sitting around a coffee table at the corner of cozy coffeeshop and talk about everything. From harmless thing to the very sensitive one, from hang out plan to backpacking plan, from joke to work... It's very refreshing!

It just feels nice to have your friend gather around you, share their thoughts and experiences, give me more knowledge easily than any book I've read. I just love being around them. And after this interestingly-tiring week, finally I feel calm and relax again... It's nice to have really good friends!
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Something purple...

2010-01-15T13:57:00.000+07:00

Love this purple shoes so much! My first non black-or-grey shoes, and I'm very happy to have it. So comfortable and fit my feet well... Once again, I Love it!
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Sore Menuju Jakarta

2010-01-10T18:25:00.000+07:00

Pinggangku sakit.

Sudah dua jam lewat, dan papan di tengah jalan tol ini baru sampai pada angka 50. Masih 50 km lagi sampai ke kota Jakarta.

Hampir setahun sudah aku melewati rutinitas akhir minggu ini, perjalanan ke Bandung saat jumat malam, dan kembali ke Jakarta pada minggu sore. Perjalanan dimana sekali pergi seharusnya hanya memakan waktu dua jam (seperti diiklankan dulu saat tol ini dibuka) akan membengkak menjadi 3-5 jam saat akhir minggu seperti ini. Ratusan bahkan mungkin ribuan orang dari Ibukota hijrah bersama-sama menuju Bandung. Setahun lalu, aku masih mengutuki mobil plat B yang memenuhi jalanan Bandung, sekarang siapa sangka aku akan menjadi bagian dari orang-orang yang kukutuki itu. Haaahhh... Sungguh tidak keren!

Aku tak bisa bilang aku menyenangi rutinitas ini, tapi aku membutuhkannya. Hari kerja mungkin hanya 5 hari dalam seminggu, 8 jam setiap harinya, tapi aku merasa itu telah berabad mengambil angka usiaku setiap harinya. Mengapa? Karena... Ah sudahlah, akan butuh beberapa halaman lain hanya untuk membahasnya. Intinya, rutinitas pulang ke Bandung ini telah menjadi kebutuhan, aku butuh merecharge semangatku, dan kota berjarak 120 km dari Jakarta itulah tempat dimana bateraiku dapat diisi kembali.

Jumat kemarin aku berangkat menuju Bandung dengan tujuan itu di dalam kepala, dan aku boleh kecewa karena tujuan itu tak sepenuhny tercapai. Yah, akan sulit untuk mengisi ulang tenaga saat yang kau dengar hanya keluhan dan argumen pertengkaran. Rumahku tak terasa sama lagi.

Beberapa bulan lalu ayahku divonis menderita satu penyakit, Bell's Palsy namanya, penyakit syaraf wajah yang membuat syaraf wajah bagian kanannya mati, dia terlihat seperti two-face dalam film Batman sekarang. Aku sendiri tak begitu tertekan dengan penyakit baru ayahku ini, selama bertahun-tahun aku dibesarkan dengan pemikiran bahwa ayahku sakit, beliau memang menderita asma kronis semenjak lama. Jadi tambahan satu penyakit seperti ini tak terlalu membuatku tertekan. Tetapi ternyata tidak dengan ayahku, dia menerima penyakitny ini dengan lebih berat dibanding kami keluarganya. Temperamennya mudah sekali naik akhir-akhir ini, pagi ini saja aku dipanggil sarapan melalui suara adu argumen orangtuaku, yang hanya meributkan tentang satu pemberian kecil pada saudara. Aku mengurungkan niatku untuk sarapan dan diam di kamar sampai ayahku bersiap berangkat, barulah aku turun menyapanya dan memberi salam karena sorenya aku akan langsung pulang ke jakarta. Sesudah ayah pergi, aku sarapan dengan diiringi curhat panjang ibuku tentang berbagai hal. Aku ingin mendengarkannya, tapi kepalaku pusing, akhirnya aku menyalakan TV dan menonton serial CSI, entah mengapa penyelidikan pembunuhan ini terasa lebih menghibur dari rumahku sendiri.

Sekarang aku dalam perjalanan kembali ke Jakarta, dan tidak merasa ter-recharge sama sekali. Kupikir, mungkin ini adalah efek bertambah dewasa, kau tak punya lagi lahan untuk bermanja saat kau berharap bisa merasakannya. Atau mungkin hanya aku saja yang merasa begitu? Mungkin. Tapi mau bagaimana lagi, hanya aku yang dianggap bisa mendengar semua keluhan itu. Pikiran Kakak laki-lakiku terlalu terpecah untuk bisa fokus pada masalah keluarga, meskipun dia masih tinggal di tengah-tengahnya. Dan kakak perempuanku... Ah... Biarlah tak usah menambah sulit hidupnya yang memang terlalu sulit dimengerti, bahkan oleh dirinya sendiri. Yang tersisa hanyalah aku, anak bungsu yang kehilangan hak bermanjanya lebih cepat.

Sekarang dalam perjalanan yang tersisa ini aku perlu memikirkan bagaimana mengejar sisa baterai yang belum terisi. Mungkin dengan menonton ulang Sherlock Holmes di bioskop, atau mungkin dengan secangkir kopi panas. Aku akan menentukannya saat sudah sampa, setidaknya aku masih punya beberapa jam sampai hari senin dimulai.
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2010

2010-01-04T11:48:00.004+07:00

Should I say Happy New year???

YES. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

What 2010 means?
New Laptop (because the old one is broken, literally broken!)

Turn 22 y.o (nice number )

A year I've been living in Jakarta and work for this company

More focus on my career

Prepare to take S2

Take business communication course

Take Dutch language course

Will have at least 2 vacation: 1 domestic (can be Bali, Lombok or Makassar) and 1 international (can be singapore, malay, or thai)
New Camera and learn photography

Live more healthy! Food combining + go to gym regularly!

200 blog post at the end of the year!

Self-strategic plan 2011-2015 rollout hehehehe...

Sherlock Holmes

2009-12-31T10:00:00.002+07:00

Saya ingat saya pernah menulis tentang film ini dulu, bagaimana saya sangat menunggu-nunggu film ini rilis. And you know, I watched it yesterday, and it worth all the waiting!

I give 7 to 8 out of 10 for this movie.

Plotnya padat, tepat dan hampir tanpa premis awal sama sekali. Waktumu tak akan terbuang dengan pendahuluan panjang tentang siapa dan bagaimana penjahatnya, semuanya langsung tersaji di awal, singkat, padat dan jelas!

Untuk fan berat serial Sherlock Holmes mungkin tidak akan terlalu suka dengan apa yang mereka lakukan terhadap karakter Holmes. Poin utama Holmes seperti strong deduction, too logical, untidy, not so interest with un-important information etc, tetap dipertahankan dengan beberapa penambahan dalam penampilan seperti menghilangnya ponco flanel dan topi khas Holmes, muka yang kurang inggris (Robert Downey itu Amerika banget deh), terlalu berisi -Holmes seorang pecandu, dan pecandu jelas susah gemuk- , sampai kelebihan tambahan dalam martial art. Penggambaran cerita dalam film ini pun mengambil sudut pandang Holmes sendiri. Cara yang gegabah, karena hampir semua cerita Holmes diceritakan oleh Watson, tentu akan berbeda jika melihat segala sesuatunya dari sang objek cerita sendiri. Film ini adalah film Holmes pertama yang saya tonton dan jelas memberikan nuansa berbeda terhadap karakter Holmes yang saya tangkap dari serialnya.

Dari sisi filmnya sendiri, ini juga film Guy Ritchie pertama yang saya tonton. Dan sejujurnya, sepertinya dia bukan salah satu favorit saya. Pemakaian perbandingan antara deduksi Holmes dalam gerak lambat dan kemudian implementasinya dalam pengambilan gambar normal memang menarik, tapi bikin enek juga kalo kebanyakan. Setting Inggris saat revolusi industri jelas menarik, tapi penggambaran Londonnya mengingatkan saya pada setting film Sweeney Todd. Dan satu hal, mengapa semua film yang mengambil gambar di wilayah London terutama di sekitaran sungai Thames selalu terlihat suram??? coba ingat-ingat Harry Potter, V for Vendetta, National Treasure : Book of Secret, Fantastic 4: The Rise od Silver Surfer dkk, apakah ini bawaan tempatnya? atau memang akan terlihat bagus kalau terlihat lebih suram?

Komentar saya untuk cast singkat:
1. Robert Downey Jr. as Sherlock Holmes terlalu berisi dan berotot, kurang aura Englishman-nya, walau slengean dan aksennya lumayan terbeli oleh saya
2. Jude Law as John Watson terlalu kurus, terlalu ganteng dan terlihat banyak mengeluh
3. Rachel Mc Adams as irene Adler, Saya tak protes dengan acting Mc Adams, saya protes dengan karakter Irene Adler yang ditampilkan. First, she's not a criminal for God's sake! Second, she's not Holmes love interest, people has too much interpretation of Holmes-Adler relationship. He honor her not in the romantic kind of way!

That's all about Sherlock Holmes. I'll edit this post if I have another thing to write. This is a great movie to close the year 2009, the very good one Happy new year everyone

Kembali ke Pojok : nostalgia

2009-12-24T13:39:00.003+07:00

Secara umum, tidak banyak yang berubah....

Hampir tiga tahun dari terakhir kali aku mengunjungi tempat ini. Tak ada yang berubah, hanya mungkin tata letak meja yang digeser dan dekorasi-dekorasi natal yang muncul di beberapa tempat. Aku langsung menuju satu sofa yang berada di pojok, dekat jendela dan menghadap ke pintu masuk, pojokku, tempatku berdiam setiap kali aku datang kesana. Tiga tahun berselang tapi ternyata ritual yang sama tetap kulakukan saat duduk di pojok itu: membuka laptop, online, memesan secangkir latte, menyumbat telinga dengan headphone dan berdiam disana entah untuk berapa lama. Tidak akan ada yang mengusik, bagaimanapun ini adalah pojokku...

Aku memandang keluar jendela, ke arah jalan raya ramai di luar sana. Kota ini hanya ribut saat akhir minggu, dan bukan penduduknyalah yang membuatnya ribut. Akhir minggu adalah waktu istirahat untuk semua orang. Istirahat bagi penduduk kota ini berarti diam di rumah, bermalasan dan nonton TV. Tapi untuk beberapa orang dari ibukota, istirahat itu diartikan sebagai "naik ke mobil, kita jalan-jalan ke bandung", maka tak heran jika plat B lah yang memenuhi jalan saat akhir minggu.

Perhatianku pada jalanan berkembang menjadi lamunan pada satu waktu kira-kira empat tahun lalu, satu percakapan yang terjadi tepat di tempat ini, di sofa ini, dengan satu orang yang saat itu selalu menemaniku mojok disini.

"kenapa kamu suka duduk disini?" tanyanya. Aku mengalihkan pandangan dari jalan kepadanya yang duduk di hadapanku.

"di sini? hmmm... karena saya bisa ngeliat kemana-mana dari sini" jawabku setelah berpikir sebentar. Dia mengangkat sebelah alisnya.

"untuk apa? toh selama disini matamu pasti terpaku ke layar laptop" cibirnya.

"yah, sekali-kali kan refreshing ngeliat yang lain-lain, lucu lagi... jadi bisa merhatiin orang-orang" kataku.

"merhatiin orang?" katanya.

"iya... sini deh... liat orang yang di sebelah pintu? dia itu selalu datang sekitar jam 3 sore hampir setiap hari... beli espresso dan duduk disitu sampai maghrib sambil baca buku, terus meja sebelah konter itu sering jadi arena arisannya ibu-ibu... berbagai macam ibu-ibu, terus kalau ngeliat keluar jendela... traffic jalanan bandung bisa keliatan, kalau ada yang baru dateng dan saya kenal... pasti langsung keliatan dari sini, tempat ini itu enak banget buat merhatiin macem-macem" balasku saat itu.

Saat itu dia memandangku dengan pandangan aneh sampai akhirnya dia tersenyum pahit,

"saya gak suka tempat ini" katanya kemudian.

"lho kenapa?" tanyaku.

"karena penglihatanmu selalu melewati saya".

Aku tak mengerti apa maksudnya saat itu. Kenapa dia berkata seperti itu? Dia selalu duduk di depanku, jelas aku pasti melihatnya. Percakapan itu adalah saat terakhir dia menemaniku mojok disini. Aku tetap tak mengerti apa maksud ucapannya sampai suatu saat sebuah notifikasi di facebook menyadarkanku, notifikasi bahwa dia baru saja mengganti status facebooknya dari 'single' ke 'in a relationship' dengan menyebutkan nama seseorang yang sangat kukenal.

Bingung, aku sangat bingung, apa maksudnya? kenapa gak bilang-bilang? dan kenapa aku merasa dikhianati? Aku merasa ditinggalkan, walau aku tak punya alasan untuk merasa begitu. Kami cuman teman... bukan???

Aku bertanya padanya tentu saja.

"kita cuman teman kan?" setengah hatiku ingin dia menjawab 'tidak' walau tak menemukan alasan yang tepat.

Jawabannya kala itu "tidak... kita teman, gak pake cuman"

Aku diam.

"walau saya pernah merasa lebih, pernah ingin jadi lebih, tapi rupanya kamu tidak begitu kan?" lanjutnya kemudian sambil tersenyum.

Aku diam, kali ini dengan rasa kaget dan kosong yang muncul bersamaan.

"kenapa gak bilang?" kataku.

"percuma, seperti yang saya bilang, penglihatan kamu selalu melewati saya"

Dan saat itulah aku mengerti. Saat sofa di hadapanku selalu terisi olehnya, aku tak terlalu merasakan signifikansi kehadirannya disana. Aku terlalu sibuk memperhatikan semua hal diluar sana, diluar kami berdua. Dan kemudian sofa itu kosong, dia tak lagi ada disana, dan kemudian pojok ini tak terasa istimewa lagi.

Empat tahun berselang. Sekarang aku melihat sofa kosong di hadapanku dan tersenyum. Dia menikah lusa, dengan orang yang sama yang namanya aku baca di facebook kala itu. Aku setengah berkhayal, kalau misalnya kala itu aku tak se-'buta' itu, mungkin lusa adalah pernikahanku juga. Aku hanya tersenyum. Sungguh khayalan yang tolol.

Mungkin aku terlalu merasa sentimentil, pengaruh nostalgia dari masa-masa kami bersama di pojok ini. Dan mungkin sedikit cemburu karena dia punya pasangan dan aku tidak. Sudahlah.... ini akhir tahun, besok natal, lusa dia menikah dan minggu depan sudah tahun baru. Liburan masih panjang, sangat sayang kalau habis untuk nostalgia melankolis.

Selamat berlibur...

Avatar

2009-12-12T15:27:00.001+07:00

Rabu malam saya membaca tweet Joko Anwar dimana dia menyebut Avatar sebagai keajaiban. kamis sore saya menontonnya dan saya setuju, Avatar memang sebuah keajaiban!

Pada awalnya banyak yang salah menyangka film ini sebagai versi movie live-action dari serial poouler Nickelodeon 'Avatar: legend of Aang'. Tapi bukan, ini adalah film berbeda. Film ini digarap oleh James Cameron, sedangkan avatar yang 'itu' akan mengambil judul The Last Airbender.

Cukup dengan avatar yang 'itu' bagaimana dengan Avatar yang ini? seperti yang Joko Anwar bilang dan yang saya bilang tadi, film ini keajaiban. James Cameron tidak terlalu membuang-buang waktu untuk membuat suatu religion seperti Star Wars dengan Jedi, atau suatu icon seperti Indiana Jones untuk membuat sebuah film yang luarbiasa, yang dilakukannya hanya membuat film: pintar, padat dan fenomenal.

Awalnya saya tidak terlalu menaruh perhatian pada film ini, manusia biru? Weleh.... Emangnya sekarang taun berapa?!?! Tapi ternyata manusia biru yang disebut Na'vi itulah yang memikat selama film berjalan, diluar pemandangan alam Pandora yang luarbiasa, juga robot-robot raksasa macam yang muncul dalam The Matrix Revolutions, juga bahasa planet yang tak jelas dan hal-hal lainnya. Sederhananya, semua hal dalam film ini benar-benar luarbiasa.

Absen bertahun-tahun setelah Titanic, James Cameron kembali dengan karya yang sangat tidak mengecewakan. Script Avatar yang sudah disiapkan jauh sebelum Titanic digarap, memerlukan waktu hampir satu setengah dekade sampai akhirnya bisa diwujudkan ke layar lebar. Tak tanggung-tanggung, produksinya menghabiskan biaya hampir $300 juta dan $200 juta untuk biaya distribusi, menjadikan Avatar resmi film termahal yang pernah ada (FYI, jumlah ini naik 50% dari budget film termahal sebelumnya). Yap, bapak yang satu ini memang tak tahu cara membuat film berbudget rendah, budget produksi filmnya selalu fantastis.

Apa yang membuat film ini mahal? Hanya satu hal: film ini miskin kenyataan! Hampir tigaperempat film adalah CGI, dan tentu saja bukan sembarang CGI. Selain menggunakan kamera khusus yang mensimulasikan penglihatan manusia, dalam pengarahannya sendiri Cameron memanfaatkan suatu teknologi CGI yang mampu merefleksikan lingkungan buatannya secara live dan real time, macam bermain virtual game saja. Cameron adalah sutradara pertama yang menggunakan teknik ini, dia bahkan mengundang Spielberg dan Lucas untuk melihatnya shooting dan mencoba teknologi baru ini. Hohoho... Peta film science fiction dan fantasi akan berubah gara-gara ini, menarik :)

Untuk membuat visualisasi Pandora beserta koloni tambang manusia di sana, crew film mengumpulkan jutaan foto hutan tropis dan kawasan pertambangan yang kemudian dimanipulasi dengan CGI untuk menghasilkan visualisasi Pandora yang diinginkan. Setelah lingkungan berhasil 'diciptakan' barulah mereka memulai shooting dengan para aktor, baik yang manusia maupun yang Na'vi. Urutannya dibalik, biasanya aktor berperan dulut baru lingkungan dimasukan dengan CGI, sekarang sebaliknya, dan hasilnya benar-benar keren! Untuk saya pribadi, Avatar adalah film fantasi paling keren saat ini, rekor sebelumnya dipegang oleh trilogi The Lord of The Rings, kelebihannya: Avatar hanya butuh satu film untuk membuat saya lupa keluar bioskop, TLOTR butuh tiga.

Baiklah, mungkin saya agak berlebihan, tapi tontonlah sendiri filmnya. Sedikit tips untuk yang akan menonton: belilah tiket online (karena dijamin ngantri), kalau nonton 3D tonton di Blitzmegaplex (karena 3D XXI tidak begitu oke), dan siapkan 3 jam kosong karena segitulah durasi filmnya (yah... gak akan kerasa juga tu 3 jam).

Trivia:
Avatar rilis di Indonesia lebih dulu dibanding USA, entah apa alasannya (saya sedang malas cari tahu).
Film ini sudah menjadi nominasi favorit di Golden Globe 2009, Dan dengan berat hati yang menarik dukungan dari Quentin Tarantino dengan Inglorious Basterds dan mengalihkannya James Cameron dengan Avatar untuk Best Movie dan Best Director (berlaku untuk semua award musim ini).
Jejeran cast untuk film ini umumnya bukan bintang besar (salah satu kebiasaan lain dari sang sutradara). Lead role: Sam Worthington (Terminator Salvation), Zoe Saldana (Star Trek).
Beberapa pemeran sama sekali tidak muncul wajahnya di film dan digantikan oleh CGI, seperti Zoe Saldana dan para pemeran Na'vi lainnya.
Catchy line. Dulu Cameron membuat 'you jump, I jump' begitu terkenal, sekarang muncul 'i see you'.
Original song-nya keren mampus! Judulnya 'i see you' dibawakan oleh Leona Lewis. Suprisingly her melancholy voice really suit the song! I bet it will be the next 'my heart will go on'.
I compare it too much with Titanic. My fault! But how can I help it? His plot-pattern is too recognizable.
Favourite scene: when Neytiri meet Jake in his human form for the first time.

Apple Lifestyle

2009-12-08T16:33:00.001+07:00

Just installed blogpress for my ipod.
Hehehe... It's nice.... :)

Terbaik...

2009-12-01T15:22:00.003+07:00

150 Lagu Indonesia terbaik sepanjang masa versi Rolling Stones Indonesia...

(yg di-bold = gw tahu, yg di-bold+gedein = gw juga suka :D)

1. Bongkar Swami
2. Kebyar – Kebyar Gombloh
3. Badai Pasti Berlalu Berlian Hutauruk
4. Bis Sekolah Koes Bersaudara
5. Guru Oemar Bakrie Iwan Fals
6. Kembali Ke Jakarta Koes Plus
7. Berita Kepada Kawan Ebiet G. Ade
8. Kehidupan God Bless
9. Sakura Fariz RM
10. Bento Swami

11. Bengawan Solo Oslan Husein & Teruna Ria
12. Kompor Mleduk Benyamin. S
13. Lilin-Lilin Kecil Chrisye
14. Memang Slank
15. Rock Bergema Roxx
16. Yogyakarta Kla Project
17. Tuhan Bimbo
18. Neraka Jahanam Duo Kribo
19. Nusantara I Koes Plus

20. Siti Nurbaya Dewa19
21. Panggung Sandiwara Ahmad Albar
22. Rumah Kita God Bless
23. Barcelona Fariz RM
24. Begadang Rhoma Irama
25. Kemarau New Rollies
26. Kidung Chris Manusama
27. Nuansa Bening Keenan Nasution
28. Burung Camar Vina Panduwinata
29. Dan Sheila On 7
30. Kosong Pure Saturday

31. Kolam Susu Koes Plus
32. Kupu Kupu Malam Titik Puspa
33. Pemuda Chaisero
34. Melayang January Christie
35. Ikuti Edane
36. Bebas Iwa K
37. Bendera Cokelat
38. Anak Pantai Imanez
39. Janji Gigi
40. Sabda Alam Ismail Marzuki

41. Bing Titik Puspa
42. Yang Terlupakan Iwan Fals
43. Merpati Putih Chrisye
44. Malaria Harry Roesli
45. Melati Dari Jayagiri Bimbo
46. Angin Malam Broery Pesolima
47. Mimpi Anggun C. Sasmi
48. Biru Kidnap Katrina
49. Tentang Kita Kla Project
50. Camelia Ebiet G. Ade

51. Surat Buat Wakil Rakyat Iwan Fals
52. Impresi Pas Band
53. Damai Tapi Gersang Adji Bandi
54. Jarum Neraka Nicky Astria
55. Mobil Balap Naif
56. Pesawat Tempur Iwan Fals
57. Tangan Tangan Setan Nicky Astria
58. Esokkan Masih Ada Utha Likumahuwa
59. Indonesia Mahardika Guruh Gipsy
60. Zamrud Khatulistiwa Guruh Soekarno Poetra

61. Penguasa Roxx
62. Gemilang Krakatau
63. Apatis Benny Soebardja
64. Astaga Ruth Sahanaya
65. Galang Rambu Anarki Iwan Fals
66. Gang Kelinci Lilis Suryani
67. Kumpul Bocah Vina Panduwinata
68. Aku Ingin Indra Lesmana
69. Gubahanku Dedy Damhudi
70. Payung Fantasi Bing Slamet

71. Surabaya Dara Puspita
72. Anak Jalanan Chrisye
73. Bunga /rif
74. Salah Potret
75. Tentang Aku Jingga
76. Terbang Gigi
77. Walah Netral
78. Api Asmara Rien Djamain
79. Ayam Den Lapeh Gumarang
80. Bunga di Tepi Jalan Koes Plus

81. Flamboyan Bimbo
82. Kesaksian Kantata Takwa
83. Kelelawar Koes Plus
84. Laron Laron Makara
85. Generasiku Boomerang
86. Distorsi Ahmad Band
87. Mahadewi Padi
88. Manis & Sayang Koes Plus
89. Sepercik Air Dedy Stanzah
90. Merepih Alam Chrisye

91. Mawar Berduri Favourites Group
92. Pelangi Koes Plus
93. Pesta Elfa’s Singer
94. Interlokal Symphony
95. Renjana Guruh Soekarno Putra
96. Posesif Naif
97. Sarjana Muda Iwan Fals
98. Berita Cuaca Gombloh
99. Gulagalugu Suara Nelayan Leo Kristi
100. Jemu Koes Plus

101. Tolong Bu Dokter Flowers
102. Kau Chandra Darusman
103. Hasrat & Cita Andi Meriem Matalatta
104. Anak Anak Terang Suara Persaudaraan
105. Genjer Genjer Bing Slamet
106. Atur Aku Puppen
107. Terserah Humania
108. Warik LFM
109. Sobat Padi
110. Bunda Potret

111. Kebebasan Singiku
112. Pulau Biru Slank
113. Mari Mari Dara Puspita
114. Kepada Perang Gong 2000
115. Ratu Sejagad Vonny Sumlang
116. Surat Undangan Rita Zaharah
117. Pergi Untuk Kembali Melky Goeslaw
118. Nurlela Bing Slamet
119. Musim Bunga Franky & Jane
120. Negeri Di Awan Katon Bagaskara

121. Selangkah Ke Seberang Fariz RM
122. Simponi Yang Indah Bob Tutupoly
123. Kembalikan Baliku Jopie Latul
124. Baby Rock SAS
125. Do What You Like AKA
126. Di Dalam Bui Koes Bersaudara
127. Terbunuh Sepi Slank
128. Kudaku Lari Elly Kasim
129. Senandung Maaf White Shoes & The Couples Company
130. Matraman The Upstairs

131. Di Udara Efek Rumah Kaca
132. Mengadili Persepsi Seringai
133. Mengejar Matahari Ari Lasso
134. Laskar Pelangi Nidji
135. Dan Senyumlah Sinikini
136. Konservatif The Adams
137. Mendekati Surga Koil
138. No Fruits For Today Sore
139. Di Sayidan Shaggydog
140. Kukatakan Dengan Indah Peterpan

141. Takkan Guest Band
142. Papaja Cha Cha Adikarso
143. Cinta Melulu Efek Rumah Kaca
144. Welcome to My Paradise Steven & Coconut Treez
145. Mimpi D & R
146. Jari & Jempol Dedy Stanzah
147. Melompat Lebih Tinggi Sheila On 7
148. Langkah Peri Cherry Bombshell
149. Matel Kubik
150. Me & My Boyfriend Mocca

Little Korean

2009-11-30T13:18:00.002+07:00

Our vendor-partner just come back from South Korea. He bought us all this cute little keychain of little korean man wearing hanbok (is this the right word?)

I like it, it's very cute...

just wondering, when I will attend that country??? and will I meet one of DBSK member??? hehehe... just kidding... :)

Vanilla is better than Chocolate!

2009-11-20T08:14:00.003+07:00

The bold one is me! :)

You like showers better than bubble baths.
You cannot stand pop music.
You have a sister.
You are an only child.
You have black hair.
You have blonde hair.
You have red hair.
You have glasses.
You wear contacts.
You like TV more than movies.
You don’t talk on the phone often.
You like to shop.
You like emo music.
You are tall.
You are short.
You are average height.
You have long hair.
You have medium length hair.
You have short hair.
You use AIM.
You use Yahoo IM.
You have more than 3 pets.
You like sushi.
You love sushi.
You are on a diet.
You are currently on the second floor of your house.
You have a small room.
You are in high school.
You have 1 little brother.
You have an older brother.
You are allergic to something.
You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
You have a current crush.
You have many crushes.
You have been kissed.
You have kissed another girl.
You laugh a lot.
You have lots of friends.
You are lonely.
You are depressed.
You are listening to music.
You are doing homework.
You have school tomorrow.
You are sick.
You hate your teacher.
You think your teacher is OK.
There is drama in your school, constantly.
You are wearing sweat pants.
You are wearing socks.
You are wearing a T-shirt.
You have lost a loved one.
You hate your school.
You loved your school.
You have been picked on.
You have been yelled at.
You have gotten in a fight.
You have said a bad word.
You shop at Abercrombie and Fitch.
You play basketball.
You play softball.
You play baseball.
You play soccer.
You play football.
You hate sports.
You get manicures.
You shop at Pac Sun.
You go to the mall a lot.
You are close with your family.
You never fight with your parents.
You have been grounded.
You have driven a car.
You are listening to your iPod.
You are watching TV.
You are watching a movie.
You are listening to the radio.
You are singing.
You are happy.
You are sad.
You are blah.
You are anxious.
You are about to go somewhere.
You haven’t been out of your house for over 3 days.
Someone besides you is in the same room with you.
You love your natural hair.
You hate your eye color.
You wish you were never been born.
You write your own songs.
You write books.
You hate to write.
You hate your hometown.
You love your hometown.
You are smart.
You are average.
You are dumb.
You get good grades.
You enjoy having people at your house.
You love going to the movies with a lot of people.
You like to go bowling with your friends.
You have ice-skated before.
You like popsicles.
You think Vanilla is better than Chocolate

Rubber and shoes

2009-11-19T08:11:00.000+07:00

Kalo kata si boss sih Ban-mobil-recycled. Kata Dita gak jauh beda ama yang palsu. Tapi toh akhirnya beli juga :)

Thanks to Teh Ratih atas harga miringnya. Hehehe...

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My Goal???

2009-11-18T22:01:00.000+07:00

Everything so grey lately, first: it always rain :( , second: I walk without direction!

21 years, and still dunno where I want to bring my life to. The last 17 years, I have school. I don't have to think what I want to do next year, because there'll always be school! New semester, new grade, new class, new teacher, new subject, new school... But still, there's school! So, should I go back to school?

I have a promise to my parent, unspoken promise, that I will take master... Whenever it will be. Then is it the right time?

Instantly, I will answer: Yes! I work in a place where I NEED more than what I had learned at college, and once again school is the lighten up my grey future.

But, in actual I will answer: NO! I just start my job, school just my expensive-runaway, and yes, it is really expensive! And do I have enough money? No! Do I have the courage to ask my father's help? BIG NO! I won't put my parent to another hard-work-to-pay-tuition anymore. I always feel thankful for what my parent has done to send me to college, but still, it doesn't mean that it's not torture me! The last four year was enough sacrifice from them, now is time for them to happy living and rest more.

So, I choose the actual answer. School maybe a perfect getaway, but I just don't feel I fight enough with what I have today. Just have to give more effort. I'll go back to school someday, but not now, I still have a battle to win!
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New Bag Organizer

2009-11-02T19:14:00.001+07:00

I ordered this Large-size-khaki bag organizer from Tasprint last week. Due to some mis-organizing in the ordering system, my order slipped. I directly asked the seller so they realize that my order slipped. They apologize and immediately send my order... And voila, it's arrived today!

It much smaller than I predicted, but not too small, actually it is in the proper size for almost woman bag in the market. This product is very helpful for me, whose bag is all shapeless :D

http://tasprint.multiply.com
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Shut Up and Let Me Go

2009-10-31T06:17:00.000+07:00

I'm not really into soul music, but when Gita ask me to go to Java Soulnation 2009 with her, I can't resist.

We end up just watch The TingTings performance. The other artist is just too quite to my liking, not that they're not good anyway.
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The Week

2009-10-30T12:19:00.004+07:00

I'm in the mellow-mood this entire week. And I listened 'Never Again' by Justin Timberlake 30 times in two days! Ugh...

Resisting the urge to shout and holding my anger is not my best point, on contrary it's so bad for me... I had headache every night since, and it hurts my self esteem too.

Me and my kosan-friend has got Gossip Girl fever, we watch it over and over and never get bored. We all agree that Blair is amazing and there's nothing good in Serena except for her body. We're team B!

Ayu got new haircut! It's shorter and fresher than before. People said she looks like Miyabi and Sherina now... but I don't agree, Ayu is much prettier for me... hehehe...

I go to the dentist yesterday, and for the first time in my life I paid 7 digit amount for medical-thing! I have this 'gak-ikhlas' feeling since then...

My kakak-ketemu-gede has accepted to the company, we're under the same employer now :)

Will watch Soulnation tonight... and? nothing... just that... Will watch Soulnation tonight!

It's been a month since the last time I met my family, I miss them so much :(

2009-10-21T12:05:00.001+07:00

Sometimes I accidentally hurt people. I never regret it, but I hate myself more everytime it's done. And the worst, everyone just love to judge me on this. Yes, I'm a hateful person, thank you for remind me all the time.
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Tuesday morning

2009-10-21T10:03:00.000+07:00

The bear... Mermaid... And banana...

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The Secret Code

2009-10-20T19:55:00.000+07:00

I GOT IT!!!

Me, Ditha, Ayu & Cita pre-order this DVD of Tohoshinki/TVXQ The Secret Code Tour Final at Tokyo Dome almost 2 months ago. Finally it arrived last week, and I received it yesterday. Dance!Dance!Dance!

I know for quite long time that they're great singers and dancers, but I can't help myself from being over excited of their performance! Every member get their own solo performance except Yuchun & JJ, they do their duet of Colors, Melody & Harmony here. Both Junsu & Yunho do their same solo performance as Mirotic concert, the one that surprised me is Changmin. He sing Wild Soul, one of not-so-my-favourite song, but he did it great! The performance deliver in a Jrock-style, with rocker outfit, big focus on the band, and fire-play-blast... Woaaa... It really reminds me of common jrock band performance, ALL HAIL THE MAKNAE!!!

I watch the full show yesterday with my kosan-friend, and of course if you watch Toho with other Toho fans, the crazy fangirl within you awaken, we screams together at certain scenes hehehe...

Great show! And expensive too, but it worth every yen :p
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This is a test

2009-10-20T19:30:00.001+07:00

tes tes... Posting from my mobile here... :)
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Classic Chrisye - A Night to Remember

2009-10-13T08:12:00.003+07:00

Remember back when I was little, when my sister ask for Trio Kwek-kwek, Agnes Monica and other children singer's cassette, I ask for Chrisye. I never know the title of every songs I heard at that time, all I know is his voice makes me calm :)

Last night, a new check for my list-to-do-when-you-still-alive : watching twilite orchestra LIVE! Plus it is all Chrisye's song with all that wonderful performer. From the younger one: Wisanggeni with Lilin-Lilin Kecil as opening. Then Sherina, she's flawless! I never saw someone at her age sing so effortless, it's like everytime she open her mouth just the best chord out. And Afgan, hmmm... all I can tell is he's fine, and there are some ABG that always scream everytime he presents, especially the one that sat behind me... ok, what should we call them? my friend give one suggestion, what about Afgan-istan?!?!?! kekekekeke...

Then the senior one, Vina Panduwinata, how old she is??? because I can't believe how she can still sing stunningly! I can't imagine how she like at her peak point, she's amazing. Then the Armand-Budjana-Addie MS performance, BUDJANA!!! I still want to scream his name out loud! Addie MS is really great at composition, from the collaboration with I Gusti Kompyang Raka in the beginning then his piano performance with Armand at vocal and Budjana at guitar, he's great, he's amazing, one of the best composer in Indonesia, and he's Kevin's father :D (forget this one ok?? kekekeke...)

Over all, it is a GREAT concert. The minus part is the Event Organizer, Merah Putih Showbiz -_-
The show is an hour late, not to mention the opening is not so smooth and the stage management is poor! I once a stage manager, so I can tell if someone do it poorly, and they do it poorly!

Brand New Eyes

2009-10-08T16:32:00.003+07:00

New album from Paramore!!!

It's been in my playlist for a week, and this is the only album in my playlist for a week, and I still don't get bored!

Highly recommended!

My favourites:
1. Misguided Ghosts
2. Careful
3. Turn It Off