Do you know how it feels like? when you have to say something is true, but deep down in your heart you know for sure that it is totally wrong!

I know it, and I tell you it is sucks! It feels like I turn into a dirty-disgusting-bug that has to be killed immediately or will cause a serious desease for other people. I hate it!

Now, in my bed, before I sleep, I replay that moment in my head then I remember that one speech at tarawih titled "tanda-tanda orang munafik"... I feel like one and I begin to hate myself!