Mengapa garis pemisah jalur di jalan raya harus dibuat terputus-putus? Kenapa tak dibuat satu garis tegas memanjang? penanda pasti bahwa tak ada yang bisa pindah jalur. Tpi apakah memang harus dibuat setegas itu? Haruskan semua hal dibuat setegas itu? sepasti itu?
Aku menyukai hal yang pasti. Hampir semua pertanyaan dapat kujawab tanpa kata 'mungkin'. Jika aku tak punya jawaban, aku akan bilang 'tidak tahu'. Tak pernah kubayangkan bahwa ada saatnya aku akan membisu akan sebuah pertanyaan... tak pernah...
"aku ingin kamu jadi istriku"
Tidak, itu bukan pertanyaan. Itu pernyataan sikap.
"tapi aku ingin kamu berhenti kerja, bisa?"
Ya, itu dia pertanyaannya. Pertanyaan yang membuatku membatu entah untuk berapa lama. Cukup lama untukku membayangkan ada mata Medusa atau Basilisk yang sedang memandangiku... apalagi yang bisa membuatku membatu selama ini.
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Harmless conversation
There's nothing special on a dull Thursday night... Just a little harmless conversation between three friends over social media service. To be exact, three single girls in separate location with the same sudden interest toward a thing called 'endorfin' :)
Sometimes I think... Who needs boyfriend when you have ton of friends you can mess around with. At least it is better than another extreme proclamation like 'who needs boyfriend when there's work'...
Sometimes I think... Who needs boyfriend when you have ton of friends you can mess around with. At least it is better than another extreme proclamation like 'who needs boyfriend when there's work'...
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Music : Feeling Good and iTunes Music Indonesia
I'm currently in the middle of an obsession toward one particular song, and unlike any other songs that I usually listen to, this song actually a jazz... The title is Feelin' Good, popularized by Nina Simone. I've been fascinated by the song for quite sometimes, and it has been covered by many singers, Muse for once, has covered it in one of the most popular cover song by an artist ever.
I don't know what attract me toward the song. But the moment I heard its opening phrase...
"bird's flying high, you know how I feel..."
I know I'm a goner. It's like having someone whisper on my neck and his breath tingle my spine. I don't really understand the meaning of the song. It feels more like the song that you will sing whenever you want to feel happy and good without paying attention to anything in particular. So, my playlist for the morning is just this one song but sung by many singers, from Nina Simone, Michael Buble, Muse, Rebecca Ferguson, to the current contestant of X-Factor USA, Carly Rose Sonenclaire. I love them all.
Another music related news. Apple finally open the iTunes music and movie store for Indonesia today.
I don't know whether to feel happy or down. I think as a user, I feel extremely happy. Finally, I can purchase the song I want to listen legally. iTunes library covers variety of genre from a wide timeline. It's not that difficult to find an old song there.
On my professional side, I feel a little bit sad. Years ago, when I start my job at current office, my first project was an online music store. I feel quite a strong emotional bonding toward the service, eventhough I'm no longer in charge for it. So, after learned about the launch, for a moment I feel like there's somekind of evil aura haunted me from behind and threatening to throw me out of my place. It's like having a long time rival in the other school and abruptly he's moving to your school and snatched away your 1st place in class. Annoying to the level of infuriating.
I know that maybe I have to look at it on the brighter side. That maybe with the push of global player like Apple, finally Indonesia's music scene can move to a better condition. That maybe, starting from the higher economic level society, people will realize the importance of purchasing legal content. And with the fact that there is a widely known music store available, there's no longer excuses to buy or download the pirated one. In business side, well, there will always be enough business for us all.
I have purchased a song through it. I kinda feel foolishly dramatic when picking the first song I'll buy, I want to buy a song that I really like and appropriate to be a milestone of my digital lifestyle experience, buying a song through iTunes. So, after a long time browsing, I decided to buy Travis's Love Will Come Through. It is one of my all-time-favourite song, and accidentally, not part of my current songs library. I purchased it for IDR 5000 (approximately USD 0.5), a little cheaper than average song's price in US iTunes. The currency has already in IDR, for all store access from Indonesia has already changed its currency to IDR for a while. I browse through its library and found a genre of Malay and Indo Pop, featured singers and musicians from Malaysia and Indonesia. The library for this genre is still limited, but I think it just a matter of time until local artist put their musics in iTunes. Afterall, its the most reliable digital music store available right now.
I don't know what attract me toward the song. But the moment I heard its opening phrase...
"bird's flying high, you know how I feel..."
I know I'm a goner. It's like having someone whisper on my neck and his breath tingle my spine. I don't really understand the meaning of the song. It feels more like the song that you will sing whenever you want to feel happy and good without paying attention to anything in particular. So, my playlist for the morning is just this one song but sung by many singers, from Nina Simone, Michael Buble, Muse, Rebecca Ferguson, to the current contestant of X-Factor USA, Carly Rose Sonenclaire. I love them all.
Another music related news. Apple finally open the iTunes music and movie store for Indonesia today.
I don't know whether to feel happy or down. I think as a user, I feel extremely happy. Finally, I can purchase the song I want to listen legally. iTunes library covers variety of genre from a wide timeline. It's not that difficult to find an old song there.
On my professional side, I feel a little bit sad. Years ago, when I start my job at current office, my first project was an online music store. I feel quite a strong emotional bonding toward the service, eventhough I'm no longer in charge for it. So, after learned about the launch, for a moment I feel like there's somekind of evil aura haunted me from behind and threatening to throw me out of my place. It's like having a long time rival in the other school and abruptly he's moving to your school and snatched away your 1st place in class. Annoying to the level of infuriating.
I know that maybe I have to look at it on the brighter side. That maybe with the push of global player like Apple, finally Indonesia's music scene can move to a better condition. That maybe, starting from the higher economic level society, people will realize the importance of purchasing legal content. And with the fact that there is a widely known music store available, there's no longer excuses to buy or download the pirated one. In business side, well, there will always be enough business for us all.
I have purchased a song through it. I kinda feel foolishly dramatic when picking the first song I'll buy, I want to buy a song that I really like and appropriate to be a milestone of my digital lifestyle experience, buying a song through iTunes. So, after a long time browsing, I decided to buy Travis's Love Will Come Through. It is one of my all-time-favourite song, and accidentally, not part of my current songs library. I purchased it for IDR 5000 (approximately USD 0.5), a little cheaper than average song's price in US iTunes. The currency has already in IDR, for all store access from Indonesia has already changed its currency to IDR for a while. I browse through its library and found a genre of Malay and Indo Pop, featured singers and musicians from Malaysia and Indonesia. The library for this genre is still limited, but I think it just a matter of time until local artist put their musics in iTunes. Afterall, its the most reliable digital music store available right now.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Movie: Breaking Dawn part 2
Let’s see... I’m not the kind of hater or nay-sayers about the whole franchise. Actually, I’m among the earlier reader of Twilight saga and love it. But I have to make it clear that, the thing that I love about Twilight books is the conversation. I like the usage of somekind of what me and my friend called ‘middle-age demeanor’ that so trustingly embedded in Edward Cullen. And then, as infectious as swine flu, writers jump to ‘make-it-to-movie’ train and voila... 5 unbearable movies that make the series worse than it actually are.
Here the things, since the first twilight movie, I always thought that the cast is dead wrong. Not in term of looks, but in term of acting capability, well some sort in looks too, but not too much. I always get sick everytime I watched Kristen Stewart acts. She have that washboard face of her that actually look flat eventhough people try to rub an ugly thick carpet in her face. Seriously dude, where’s your expression???
And then come the teenage girl infatuation, Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen. Well, at least he has some expressions, eventhough I don’t know why he have to look mushy all the time. He's hot, but I never imagine Edward as somekind of boy with stupid smirk and mellow eyes. And the others, ah... I can’t say anything about the others, there will be too much disappointment from me about the cast, so, I think it’s kinda late to go all wishy-washy on the cast, they already there for the whole series.
Long Weekend in Bandung: Trans Studio Bandung & Braga
We have a very long-weekend holiday last week. In spirit of celebrating Islamic new year, the government decided to pronounce last Thursday and Friday as public holiday. As usual, I went back to Bandung, but at this time I spent it most with my friends.
We finally visited Trans Studio Bandung at Friday. By 'we' I mean me, Ayu and Sonia. The place itself has been an upcoming destination in Bandung since its opening at 2011. We planned it for quite sometimes, but never really get the chance. We decided to visit it at Friday with the hope that it wouldn't be as crowded as in Saturday or Sunday.
On Saturday, I have a lunch-date with Poets. She told me that there is an exhibition at Gedung Gas Negara at Jalan Braga. It got my attention immediately, because the building has been vacant for a long time and the last time I checked, it is in a very bad shape. The exhibition itself is part of an event hold by Ikatan Mahasiswa Arsitektur Gunadharma ITB. And Poets as part of Bandung Heritage Society also prepare some material to be exhibited in the event. We agree to meet at Braga Huis at lunchtime and then head to Gedung Gas Negara to watch the exhibition.The exhibition was awesome! The theme of the exhibition are architecture, heritage and art. There are materials showed the architectural analysis on Braga area and also other old colonial buildings in Bandung. From the exhibition, I knew that there were actually 2 colonial time architect by the name of Schoemaker, they are brothers, Richard Schoemaker and C.P Wolff Schoemaker. The name Schoemaker has been tied to most historical buildings in Bandung. Bandung Heritage society also exhibit some materials regarding historical building preservation and some studies on urban planning. I found Poets's name on some of the materials and feels oddly smug because I come with her, just WOW.
I left the exhibition at 5 p.m. The committee said that the exhibition has surpassed their expectation of attendee, there were more than 1500 people came in 1 week. I feel deeply grateful for the committee from IMA-G ITB for holding the event in the building. It just feels nice to finally see people with so much passion for heritage preservation. And most of all, I love people that love Bandung :)
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Virtually New York
I always get fascinated by New York City. I love songs about New York, from the classic "New York, New York" to the modern one like "Empire State of Mind". Most of my favourite movies take place in New York, from "Breakfast at Tiffanys" to "You've Got Mail" to the recent "Premium Rush". I've never been to New York, but New York is the only city in the US that I want to visit.
And then, there's this magical thing from the 21st century called internet, that enable people from developing asian country with limited budget like me to wander around New York city without visiting it. I like to wander around New York through Google maps street view. Checking out Apple store at 5th Avenue, wondering about how nice it will be to reading a book on a bench under a big tree in Central Park, watching people jogging or toddler playing in the meanwhile. Sitting on the steps of Met Museum and taking picture of all those people hanging around there. Gazing up from the intersection of Time Square to the those giant billboards around it. And maybe walking along 5th Avenue toward the Empire State Building. Well, I've done that virtually and hope can do it literally in the future.
In the mean time, I find this blog, Humans of New York. It's a fascinating blog. When I'm wandering around New York through Google Maps street view for its scenery, then I will know a little about its people through this blog. The photographer, Brandon, take picture of stranger in the street of New York City and write short caption or description when post it to his blog. It's like The Sartorialist of common sense, not so fashionable, not so glamour, just real. The picture he take give people a story, and will make us wonder what does it feels to meet those many people, have a little chat while asking to take their picture. I admire his brave in engaging with stranger and his passion that transfer those photos into a fascinating stories. And I also envy his opportunity to meet those varieties of people, including the toddlers.
I've been following his blog for quite sometimes, and I recommend this blog to people that always has a dream to visit New York City someday, and maybe to those that has interest to meet thousands of people with different stories, virtually.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Terbang
Jalan ini terasa terlalu lurus. Papan penunjuk jarak jalan tol berlari melewatiku, 80? 100? 120 km/jam? Aku tak punya kemampuan untuk memperkirakan seberapa cepat mereka berlari ke arahku, atau mobil yang kutumpangi ini yang melaju melewati mereka? ada satu hukum yang menjelaskannya bukan? Newton? 1 atau 2?
Ah, aku tidak ingat. Dia selalu menceritakan semua hal rumit itu dengan senyum lebar dan mata berbinar, seperti orang jatuh cinta. Tapi apalah itu disebutnya jika kau jatuh cinta pada hukum fisika?
Aku menutup mata, masih sekitar 20 kilometer lagi sampai ke bandara, dan 12 ribu kilometer sampai Paris. Paris? bukan... dia bilang dia bukan akan ke Paris, Marseille lebih jelasnya. Aku tak pernah dengar nama kota itu sebelumnya. Satu-satunya kota di Perancis yang aku tahu adalah Paris dan mendengar namanya selalu membuatku berpikir, mengapa ada yang mau menamai satu kota dengan nama seorang pria romantis pengecut, atau dalam abad yang berbeda, nama seorang perempuan kaya manja? Yah, aku sendiri pun tak tahu mana yang memakai nama itu lebih dulu.
Dia akan berangkat ke sana tak lama lagi, sekitar dua jam lagi jika tidak salah, untuk satu tujuan... belajar fisika. Aku tak pernah habis pikir kenapa seseorang mau belajar fisika atas kemauan sendiri. Fisika memang menyenangkan, lebih mudah dimengerti dibanding Kimia, dan jelas lebih matematis, tapi tetap saja, aku tak pernah begitu mengerti apa yang bisa dilakukan dengan mengetahui bagaimana menghitung jarak lontar peluru ataupun dari menghapal semua hukum-hukum berbahasa aneh itu. Toh kalau sampai suatu saat aku melontar peluru, aku tak akan punya waktu untuk menghitung terlebih dahulu, itu pun kalau sampai suatu saat aku punya kesempatan untuk melontar peluru. Tapi dia menyukai Fisika seperti aku menyukai makanan.
Ah, aku tidak ingat. Dia selalu menceritakan semua hal rumit itu dengan senyum lebar dan mata berbinar, seperti orang jatuh cinta. Tapi apalah itu disebutnya jika kau jatuh cinta pada hukum fisika?
Aku menutup mata, masih sekitar 20 kilometer lagi sampai ke bandara, dan 12 ribu kilometer sampai Paris. Paris? bukan... dia bilang dia bukan akan ke Paris, Marseille lebih jelasnya. Aku tak pernah dengar nama kota itu sebelumnya. Satu-satunya kota di Perancis yang aku tahu adalah Paris dan mendengar namanya selalu membuatku berpikir, mengapa ada yang mau menamai satu kota dengan nama seorang pria romantis pengecut, atau dalam abad yang berbeda, nama seorang perempuan kaya manja? Yah, aku sendiri pun tak tahu mana yang memakai nama itu lebih dulu.
Dia akan berangkat ke sana tak lama lagi, sekitar dua jam lagi jika tidak salah, untuk satu tujuan... belajar fisika. Aku tak pernah habis pikir kenapa seseorang mau belajar fisika atas kemauan sendiri. Fisika memang menyenangkan, lebih mudah dimengerti dibanding Kimia, dan jelas lebih matematis, tapi tetap saja, aku tak pernah begitu mengerti apa yang bisa dilakukan dengan mengetahui bagaimana menghitung jarak lontar peluru ataupun dari menghapal semua hukum-hukum berbahasa aneh itu. Toh kalau sampai suatu saat aku melontar peluru, aku tak akan punya waktu untuk menghitung terlebih dahulu, itu pun kalau sampai suatu saat aku punya kesempatan untuk melontar peluru. Tapi dia menyukai Fisika seperti aku menyukai makanan.
Monday, October 29, 2012
Complication
It was on a depressed Wednesday night, after a very tough day, I had this little chat with my friend about marriage. He's already married his college sweetheart. Me on the other hand, is a lost girl. The one that don't want to be bothered with the whole dating or marriage thing whatsoever. I ask him one question that keep hanging in my mind...
It took almost 2 hours after the conversation to get the answer from my friend. It's not really an answer, he gave me the basic reasoning. He said, there's a hint of worry and doubt in my question. The theme is classic, insecurity. Which is common for girls my age. Most girls -basically- are vulnerable and fragile, and they seek security and comfort in a relationship. On the other side, a man has an acute need of being needed. That even a jerk like Barney Stinson still want to be needed by girls because... well... he's good in bed. So, the bottomline is, when those two needs collided in overlapping timeline, finally meet, clicked and matched with each other, my question will be irrelevant. At that point, a couple will realize that what they want and need is take a step further and build a life together. No more question, no more reasoning. Just know that it's right.
It take me sometimes to think about his answer, and come to realization that my girl friends also said similar thing to me with different packaging... 'you just haven't meet the man yet'. I always take the answer like that lightly, but when I talk similar thing to a boy and he gave me different packaging of the answer (with all reasoning and so-called psychological analysis), I get it immediately. Sigh, maybe my brain is hardwired for complication, you have to explain a simple thing using quantum mechanic vocabulary if you want to get my attention. I'm that complicated. But maybe, sometimes I'll look at this subject with simpler mindset. Maybe, when the urge to be a relationship is high, when most of my close friend won't hang out with me anymore because of 'family-issue' and my family has barked loudly in my ears every now and then, I'll be forced to look at thing with simpler perspective. Maybe, someday it's not about trust issue anymore. Maybe, it just about having someone to spend the rest of your life with and prevent human race from extinction. We'll see.
"how can you let a stranger become a crucial part of your life, let your guard down for him/her and give her/him almost unlimited access to every part of you?"Because that's what I thought about marriage. It's about letting someone in and hopefully, he'll stay there forever. But that person, eventhough you date him/her for as long as you remember, is still a stranger. You're not born with him/her, not grow up with him/her, not always together with him/her and above all, you have all the right to choose to be with him/her. So what's make a person so sure to accept someone unconditionally and make him/her a part of their life?
It took almost 2 hours after the conversation to get the answer from my friend. It's not really an answer, he gave me the basic reasoning. He said, there's a hint of worry and doubt in my question. The theme is classic, insecurity. Which is common for girls my age. Most girls -basically- are vulnerable and fragile, and they seek security and comfort in a relationship. On the other side, a man has an acute need of being needed. That even a jerk like Barney Stinson still want to be needed by girls because... well... he's good in bed. So, the bottomline is, when those two needs collided in overlapping timeline, finally meet, clicked and matched with each other, my question will be irrelevant. At that point, a couple will realize that what they want and need is take a step further and build a life together. No more question, no more reasoning. Just know that it's right.
It take me sometimes to think about his answer, and come to realization that my girl friends also said similar thing to me with different packaging... 'you just haven't meet the man yet'. I always take the answer like that lightly, but when I talk similar thing to a boy and he gave me different packaging of the answer (with all reasoning and so-called psychological analysis), I get it immediately. Sigh, maybe my brain is hardwired for complication, you have to explain a simple thing using quantum mechanic vocabulary if you want to get my attention. I'm that complicated. But maybe, sometimes I'll look at this subject with simpler mindset. Maybe, when the urge to be a relationship is high, when most of my close friend won't hang out with me anymore because of 'family-issue' and my family has barked loudly in my ears every now and then, I'll be forced to look at thing with simpler perspective. Maybe, someday it's not about trust issue anymore. Maybe, it just about having someone to spend the rest of your life with and prevent human race from extinction. We'll see.
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